It's Not The Way I Planned It

My Wish For You

2011-12-24T13:15:00.001-07:00

Just wanted to wish you all a safe and happy Christmas. I hope you have lots of laughs, good food and great presents. But mostly, I hope you're lucky enough to be with the ones you love.

Merry Christmas!

Three Christmas "Bugs"

2011-12-08T13:48:00.001-07:00

I am really enjoying the Christmas season this year. It's been refreshing to feel excitement about shopping, baking, decorating and counting down the days! I can hardly wait for Christmas Eve when we can relax and enjoy all that's gone into making these days so special.

Sadly, I have a few gripes too. Let's be honest... I wouldn't be me if I didn't. I am really trying to see only the good in things, but sometimes the negative is just too much to overlook. But I will say this in my own defense, I was thinking of sharing a top five list of things that annoy me this Christmas, but I could only come up with three! See! I am doing much, much better. I think last year, I could have found twenty to list.

Anyway, here we go. The top three things that bug me this holiday season.

1. Annoying sales people with annoyingly fake whiny baby voices. Please! Just use your God given voice to ask me if I need help! I counted sixteen of these voices while shopping with Becky last week. In one day! Sixteen! Women, please. It's not cute to talk this way. Just be you. Quit trying to fake sweetness. We appreciate you're probably not having fun at work during this month and it's okay. Be pleasant. But don't be fake. Please.

Oh. And don't follow me around asking if I need help. I appreciate being asked once, after that it just makes me mad! Becky and I were shopping for pajamas, and I'm not kidding, every single time we picked up a pair to look at, one saleswoman popped out of thin air to tell us how cute they were! Needless to say we didn't buy any at that particular store (Hello Nordstoms). Okay we did. Because they have the cutest pajamas ever, but we did not buy them from the buggy baby voiced stalker saleswoman. We found a normal person to check us out.

2. Mall Christmas decorations. Where are they?? I've been so disappointed with the lack of decorations out in the malls this year. Every Christmas I look forward to seeing the extravagant decorations throughout the stores. This year it looks like they borrowed a few of my Grandma's old decorations and put no effort into arranging them up. I swear I spend more money when it looks nice. I can prove that by saying the only money I've spent at the mall this year was when I bought pajamas from Nordstroms. I am just not feeling it . Sorry mall. But it's your fault.

3. Okay. This one is my biggest gripe:

Why on earth would Best Buy think it was a good idea to be so mean to Santa? It's not just Best Buy though. Have you noticed how mean spirited television is becoming? Do you remember this one:

I also saw a commercial for a sitcom recently titled, I Hate My Teenage Daughter. That bugs me. I know I got off track, but seriously. Quit being so mean everybody. I think maybe our priorities are a bit off track if we're being so hateful to our husband, daughters and even Santa Claus!

Oh! I almost forgot my all time biggest Christmas pet peeve. So as a bonus to my list, here is #4:

Santa Baby. Do I need to say more?

I. Hate. That. Song. Why? See #2.

To end things on a happier note, I have to tell you a funny story. When shopping earlier this week, Becky bought a gift for Greg in the tool department at Sears. We left the store and walked into a shoe store and their alarm system went off. It was Becky's bag. So we trudged back to Sears and they couldn't find any reason why that would happen. So we left Sears, and went to a clothing store and again the alarm went off. It happened in every single store we visited that day at the mall, except Sears. No one could ever figure out why it was happening, but I thought it was hilarious. Becky? Not so much. Ha!

Is anyone still here?

2011-12-07T15:57:00.001-07:00

I wonder if anyone is still out there... I kinda left you hanging. I was feeling overwhelmed, ill, depressed and lonely and didn't want to fill the pages of my blog with anymore of those negative emotions. So I took a break. It lasted too long.

I'm feeling so much better now. I have a better outlook on my life. I'm excited about Christmas and for the first time in several years, I am enjoying every day leading up to it. Becky and I went Christmas shopping this past Monday. We lasted ten hours (!) before we finally gave in and went home. I only bought one thing that day. But Becky did very well. We'll go again next week...hopefully, I'll find what I'm looking for then.

I won't be with my kids this Christmas, but you know what? It's okay. PJ will be with close friends and Hayden is still in Japan. They're okay, so I'm okay. I do hope we can all be together next year though. It's my Christmas wish. Maybe I shouldn't have said that...now it won't come true.

I've noticed a lot of my very favorite blog friends are taking breaks from updating. I miss them. But I really understand. I hope they'll come back though.

I'm going to be much better about updating. If you're still here, thanks.

What's New

2011-10-23T22:00:00.000-06:00

(I accidently hit publish before I was finished writing this post, so you might have already seen part of it in your reader. I'm so sorry for any confusion or trouble this might have caused.)

It was never my intention to stop posting here on my blog. I hit a rut and I couldn't seem to pull myself out. I was feeling depressed and I couldn't find light inside of me to share for anything! I didn't want this to become a negative place, in spite of how I was feeling, so I thought I'd take a week or so to get a grip and come back with a smile. The only thing is, it's taken longer than a week.

Please understand. I know how blessed I am. I truly do. I've had many trials the past couple of years, but I've also had loads of good things come my way too. It's just that sometimes it's so overwhelming and I find myself wishing for what I don't have, rather than being grateful for what I do. It's a constant struggle. But enough commentary... I want to tell you what's been happening this past couple of months.

The good news is, I was found by a Social Security Judge to be disabled, and therefore, I am now receiving disability payments every month. I earned the right to these payments through my work history in the past, so I feel good about it. I have enough to pay for my current needs, with some left over to start a savings. I cannot tell you what a relief this is for me.

I am also eligible for, and receiving benefits from Medicare. I am probably most excited about this. It's been a long time since I've had the opportunity to take care of myself medically and it's been a constant worry. The first thing I did was to get an MRI. I was about two years overdue and I had a feeling something was wrong. I was right. Something was wrong.

I was diagnosed with two brain tumors, that are big enough to come out. There are two more that have not grown much, so that's the good news. I am waiting for a call from the family neurosurgeon (I'm not kidding. We have one of those). Hopefully I can get an appointment to see him soon and get this over with quickly.

I have been experiencing constant bouts of dizziness and occasional moments of nausea. It may not sound like much, but it's exhausting. I am almost looking forward to brain surgery. I just hope recovery is quick. I can handle anything if it will heal quickly.

So there you are...you're caught up with what's been going on with me. Sort of. At least, all I care to share right now.

I just felt you all deserved an explanation. I looked at my tracking history yesterday and was touched so many of you are still coming by to check on my blog. It means so much to me! Thank you.

I am hoping to be back better than ever in a month or so. I miss blogging and hearing from my friends, old and new. Please keep me in your prayers. I would appreciate it. Also, if you're a facebook friend, I am asking you don't comment there about my health as I have yet to tell Gus about it. He is so far away, on deployment, and I know he will worry. I am waiting until the last minute to tell him so he doesn't have to spend time worrying. Thank you.

Lemon Creme Dessert

2011-08-28T23:07:00.000-06:00

Despite some of the hottest temperatures of the summer, I can feel fall coming. There is the slightest hint of coolness in the hot breezes that are blowing through town. It seems to be getting dark earlier, and fall decorations are already hitting the stores.

Becky and I couldn't be happier about the change in seasons, no matter how slowly it's happening. We are gearing up for casseroles, pumpkin recipes and Halloween candy. Just the thought of it makes us giddy.

But before summer leaves and fall moves in, I had to find time to make my favorite summer recipe. It's a must for me to make this dessert at least once during the heat of the summer months, as it's so refreshing. Not to mention, delicious.

I first saw this recipe in a Taste of Home magazine several years ago. I made it immediately and it was such a hit that it immediately became a family favorite. I like to make it for company because not only does it look like I spent all day putting it together, but it's really beautiful to serve.

Lemon Creme Dessert

First layer (crust):

1 cup flour, 1 cup finely chopped pecans, 3 tablespoons sugar, ½ cup chilled butter

Combine flour, nuts and sugar. Cut in butter until pieces are very small. Press into buttered 11x7 inch pan. Bake at 350° for 15 to 20 minutes, until edges are light golden brown. Cool.

Second layer:

8 oz. cream cheese, softened, 1 cup powdered sugar

Beat cream cheese and powdered sugar until smooth. Spread over cooled crust.

Third layer:

1½ cups sugar, 1/3 cup plus 1 tablespoon cornstarch, 1½ cups cold water, 3 egg yolks (lightly beaten), 3 tablespoons butter (cubed), 2 teaspoons grated lemon peel, ½ cup fresh squeezed lemon juice

In large saucepan, combine sugar and cornstarch. Gradually add water. Bring to boil over medium heat. Cook and stir for one minute, until thickened. Remove from heat. Stir small amount of cooked mixture into egg yolks. Add mixture back to pan, stirring constantly. Heat to gentle boil. Cook and stir one minute. Remove from heat; stir in butter and lemon peel. Stir in lemon juice. Refrigerate until cool. Spread over second layer.

Fourth layer:

1 cup cold milk, 1 sm package instant vanilla pudding mix, ½ tsp vanilla, 8 oz. cool whip, thawed.

Beat milk and pudding mix on low for two minutes. Beat in vanilla. Fold in cool whip. Spread over lemon layer.

Chill four hours. Cut into squares to serve. May serve with additional cool whip.

I hope you'll give this delicious dessert a try before summer ends. Maybe it will become a family favorite for you too.

fill in the blank friday

2011-08-26T00:07:00.001-06:00

I should be sleeping. I have a big day ahead of me tomorrow. I decided I must participate in fill in the blank friday so I'll sleep later.

One of life's most simple pleasures is eating dinner as a family at the kitchen table.

People ringing my doorbell, wanting to sell me something makes me want to punch someone.

I like Thursdays because it's Project Runway night!

Juicy is a funny word.

If I had to choose one beauty product to use for the rest of eternity it would be mascara. My eyes are invisible without it.

I'm happy that my son deployed yesterday. He was worried he would be in the Marines for four years and never get to go anywhere.

I would never sing in public. You're welcome.

If you want to fill in blanks too, hurry over to the little things we do to join in.

What I Did Over Summer Break

2011-08-22T23:19:00.000-06:00

I'm not sure why I disappeared for pretty much the entire summer...I just did. I'm kind of bummed about it too as this blog is an unintentional diary and now I've lost the opportunity to record my summer so I can remember forever.

I've decided to summarize the past several weeks for you...and for me.

* I spent far too much time missing my boys and feeling sorry for myself that they're so far away from me.

* I celebrated my birthday. I was completely spoiled by Becky and family, as well as Gus who happened to be home on leave for my special day. It was a really happy day. Had to say goodbye to Gus that day, and immediately started feeling sorry for myself again.

* Becky and I went to the theater to see the final Harry Potter film . Loved the movie and the company but the highlight was the gooseberry Icee I got at the concession stand. I can't stop thinking about it.

* Developed more UTI's. Ugh! I hate those things. I just wish they'd stop!!

* Had a girls night out with Becky. We had dinner then went to see Dirty Rotten Scoundrels at Hale Centre Theater. It was hilarious! I love Hale Theater...they do an amazing job every time.

* Lost three pounds. (it's better than nothing, right?)

* I watched too much television. But the must see for me this summer was The Glee Project. I truly loved those kids and was delighted when Samuel and Damien co-won. I thought it was the perfect ending ever! I'll probably watch Glee this fall just so I can see my favorite TV kids living their dreams.

* I spent several hours in the ER due to dehydration and violent dizziness. I felt better after getting an IV with medicine for nausea and dizziness. It is believed a brain tumor is causing me to be dizzy but can't find out for sure until I find a way to get an MRI. It stinks to be without insurance.

* I was able to spend three very happy days with my boys. It was the first time I'd seen them together in two years. They've changed so much!

PJ looked great! He is so tanned and fit, but his hair was too long and out of control. He grew it out of spite after all those years of weekend haircuts and inspections. Thankfully, he visited the barber before he left so I could see his sweet face again. It's not a military cut, but close.

Gus wanted to spend every minute he had with his girlfriend. I can understand that. I was thankful for the two days he gave me. He was a little preoccupied with his deployment coming up, but still sweet as ever.

Gus went back to North Carolina Saturday, and PJ left today. Gus is leaving for deployment tomorrow. Hopefully, we'll all get together again when he comes home.

* I am at this moment watching The Bachelor Pad. Please don't judge me, I'm ashamed of myself as it is. I just have to say, I cannot stand Vienna. Gag. I cannot think of a single nice thing to say about her. I wish she would SHUT UP. I don't really feel badly for Kasey, but I think he's going to get burned by Vienna. She will drop and kick him when she's used him up. I can't help but wonder what his mom thinks about this... although she probably lost all hope for him with the 'guard and protect your heart' business. I hope they vote him off soon.

Well, that's it. I think you must be secretly happy I haven't tortured you with such useless nonsense all summer. Am I right?

Harry, Edward and Duran Duran

2011-08-02T13:33:00.000-06:00

I'm not a joiner. When the rest of the world was listening to Duran Duran or Wham, I was listening to George Strait. I've never played Angry Birds and I never saw a single episode of Lost. I march to the beat of my own drum and it's always worked for me.

I never saw a single Harry Potter movie, or read any of the Twilight books. That is until the past two weeks. When the newest and the very last Harry Potter movie was released, I was finally curious and desired to see them. Happily, Becky has all the movies so we spent a week watching all of them, one after another. I was surprised how quickly I was drawn into the story of Harry, Ron and Hermione. They are charming and leave me wishing I was one of their close friends as well.

I'll be honest. I would have to watch these movies a dozen more times to understand everything that happened. I was overwhelmed with the fast moving story lines and strange names. I couldn't keep track of everything. At first, I had Becky pause the movies while I asked questions, but Trey grew impatient with me so I stopped asking. My old tired brain cannot compete with his fresh absorbent one. He understood all of it, although in my defense, he did read the books as well. That gave him an advantage.

Becky and I are going to see the newest Harry Potter movie tomorrow. I am excited to see it but at the same time I dread it. I don't want it to be over. I just found this wonderful series and now it's over. I wish I had joined in when the first movie came out.

When we finished watching the movies, Becky asked if I wanted to read the Twilight books. I, of course, said no thank you. But she pushed me and wanted to know why. I didn't really have an answer so she asked if I would just read the first one. I seemed fair enough so I agreed.

Oh my word! That book took over my life! It only took a day and a half to read the entire thing. I was hooked. Edward was all I could think about! I wanted more! Needless to say, I read each of the books in the series, one after another and within a week I had finished them all.

I am still surprised that I enjoyed them as I did. I do not like dark and scary things and vampires and werewolves fit in that category. I never imagined I could enjoy anything where they were present. But I did! I look forward to seeing those movies next.

I learned a lesson this past month. I need to join in, at least a bit, when the next big thing happens. I might surprise myself and enjoy what everyone else is enjoying. Or maybe I won't, but I'll never know if I don't try.

Now if you'll excuse me, I think I'll go listen to Duran Duran. It's never to late to see if I like them too.

Settle Down Micky

2011-07-22T13:11:00.000-06:00

Did you watch The View today? The Monkees were on as part of the The View's Where Are They Now? series. I may or may not have screamed...a bit...when they were announced. It's no secret I am a teeny bopper at heart and I love all boy bands. Can I call The Monkees a boy band?

This is them forty years ago:

And, this is them now (minus Michael Nesmith):

I thought they were charming. They were full of life and so happy. It made me happy to hear what they've been doing for the past forty five years. (Forty five years! How old am I??) Oh, you might be wondering about the forth member of the Monkees. He's alive and well, he just chose not to participate in their latest tour. The guys said he never enjoyed all the traveling that comes with it.

At the end of the show they sang a medley of their hits. I'll be honest. I felt uncomfortable watching them. They're kinda old. It might have been better had Micky not been trying so hard. He was bouncing around the stage acting like a has been rock star. I felt bad. I hope they'll watch themselves on tape and see that all they really need to do is have fun while they sing. Don't perform Micky. It's not becoming. Sorry.

Usually, I wouldn't even notice Micky. Or Peter. I only have eyes for Davy. About ten years ago I was able to see him perform at Disney World. It was a thrill for me. Especially when he sang, Girl, from the Brady Bunch episode when Marcia was trying to meet him to ask if he would perform at their school dance. When my boys were growing up I would sing it to them constantly. They hated it but it made me laugh.

If you watched them on The View this morning, please leave a comment and tell me what you thought about their performance. I would love to hear your thoughts about it. Just in case you missed Davy on The Brady Bunch, I'm putting the bit of him singing Girl right here:

TV Is My Company

2011-07-05T00:03:00.001-06:00

How was your Independence Day? Mine was quiet. I spent the entire weekend alone. Normally, I would enjoy having so much time to myself. I used to crave it constantly. But in my old age, not so much. I spent the entire time feeling sorry for myself and wishing I had company.

To keep myself occupied I spent a lot of time watching television. I had almost twenty programs stacked up in Hulu, so I decided it was time to shorten the list. Most were new summer series and I had high hopes I'd find some keepers. Do you remember the days when all that was on TV in the summer were reruns of the fall/winter shows? I hated that and I'm so happy it's no longer like that.

I started by watching two episodes of The Glee Project. Let me start by saying this, I am not a Gleek. I've tried to like Glee, but I just don't enjoy it. The musical numbers are great, but the rest of it is just too weird for me. I wasn't able to connect with the characters and to me, it felt like the same episode over and over. That said, I wasn't expecting to enjoy The Glee Project at all, but it really surprised me. I absolutely love it and cannot get enough!

Twelve hopefuls are competing for a seven episode guest spot on Glee. Each performer brings a different personality and viewpoint to the competition. Each episode they are given a theme, a homework assignment and perform for one of the members of the cast. They go through the same process as they would if they were on the show. It's grueling and rewarding. It's fun as you see both the good sides and the not so good sides to their personalities come out as they compete. They all want to win this so much!

When each episode ends, I am left wanting more. I find myself cheering for all of them and feeling a bit sad as they are eliminated. It airs on Oxygen Sundays 8/9 central. Please, I beg of you, watch this show.

Another new program I've discovered is Suits. Suits is a new drama airing on USA network. It's based in a law firm, where Mike, a college dropout, while running from police, slips into a job interview for new attorneys. He is hired after, Harvey the hiring attorney recognizes his talents and photographic memory.

I've watched two episodes thus far, and I've really enjoyed them. It does however, remind me a lot of another USA original, Psych. It's pretty much the same premise, only one is set in a law firm and the other set in a police station. That said, I find Suits as enjoyable as Psych, so it's kinda like getting two for the price of one. Suits airs on USA Thursdays 10/9 central.

I've also enjoyed a new series called Love Bites. I read earlier this week, it's already been cancelled, but I'm hoping they'll still air more episodes before it's pulled. This show reminds me a bit of Love American Style from the seventies. Does anyone else remember that show? I loved it. A lot. Though looking back, I'm pretty sure I was too naive to understand half of the humor. Anyway, I'm having a hard time describing this show in my own words, so I'm borrowing the description from the NBC website.

"Love Bites" is an hour-long romantic comedy anthology series featuring three loosely connected modern stories of love, sex, marriage and dating. Each of the multiple vignettes will involve an array of talented guest stars every week, and will illuminate the theme of love with a fresh, irreverent spin."

I was first drawn to this program because it stars Becki Newton who played in Ugly Betty. I adored her as the quirky Amanda and was disappointed when it was cancelled. But I find her equally as fun in Love Bites, and feel bad she's found herself in another ending role. Love Bites airs on NBC Thursdays at 10/9 central.

I also enjoyed watching Food Network Star, How the States Got Their Shape, Master Chef and The Voice. Am I missing anything? Have you discovered a show you love? Please let me know, if you have!

It makes summer go so much faster to have something good to watch on TV. Thankfully, I'm not hard to please. Just don't show reruns and all is good.

fill in the blank friday

2011-07-01T01:26:00.001-06:00

Happy Friday! Not only does today begin the weekend, but it's also the day to fill in the blank! Hurry over to the little things we do to link up. While you're there, leave Lauren a congratulations...she's expecting her first baby!! Congrats Lauren!

The best news I ever received is my brain tumor was benign.

Something I'm looking forward to is four days alone, with the whole house to myself.

Something I would never do is participate in a flash mob, go to my class reunions, or shave my head.

If I could choose someone to be my life coach (famous or not, living or dead) I'd choose my dad. He died when I was eight. I've heard stories all my life about how intelligent and warm he was. I have a few very fond memories of him and truly feel I missed out not having him in my life.

If I had to put a label on my style it would be 'good try'. I never seem to hit the mark, though I truly strive to.

One should always be polite, and use good manners.

I want to be married again.

Why I Love The Airport

2011-06-30T09:42:00.000-06:00

I spent time at the Salt Lake City International Airport last night. I love the bustle of airports...the more crowded the better. It seems there is always something interesting to see and last night was no exception.

I saw a group of about fifteen Mormon missionaries, with serious faces and fear in their eyes, lined up to board a flight. I don't know where they were going, but I recognized the uncertainty on their faces. It made me smile.

I saw a crowd of rowdy people with posters waving excitedly and gift bags sitting close by as they waited for a group of kids to come in from Northern Ireland. They belonged to an exchange group of some sort and were hosting the Irish kids for a couple of months. I heard the cheers as the Irish kids came off the plane.

I saw a Sailor, in full uniform, walk quickly toward the girl he loves. I saw him pick her up and twirl her around as he kissed her. I felt tears spill out of my eyes. Those military homecomings always get me!

I heard applause as a small army group walked through the airport. I joined in to show my support and gratitude. I saw their smiles and their pride. It's such a small gesture, but it means so much.

I saw a family welcome home a daughter. As she came into the terminal they grabbed her, and all four jumped up and down, arm in arm, screaming with happiness. I wish I knew their story.

I saw three Mormon missionaries return home to their waiting families, after serving two years for their church. The family members were thrilled to see their boys. The boys were happy but uncomfortable. It takes time to adjust back into real life.

I saw a father hug his daughter as his eyes filled with tears. I heard security ask everyone to move as to make room for those arriving from their flights. I heard a newborn baby cry. I felt ice cold water hit my face as I bent to drink from a fountain.

I recognized a couple from my hometown. They wouldn't know me, so I didn't speak to them. I wondered who they were waiting for. I spent a few minutes remembering my encounters with them while I was growing up. I was terrified of the husband. Ha!

I watched my niece as she saw her old friend arrive from Russia. I saw the excitement as her friend saw her. The hugs, the shrieking, the happiness. I saw tears in my sisters eyes, as she witnessed the love the Russian friend has for her daughter.

It's what I love about airports.

fill in the blank friday

2011-06-24T00:11:00.004-06:00

It's just not Friday if I don't fill in the blank. Join along, if you'd like. But remember. It's no fun if you don't link up. Hurry over to the little things we do to add your link.

The last thing I ate was (were) two very delicious oreos.

The next thing I'd like to eat is a Cheesecake Factory cheesecake. I'm not sure which flavor, though carrot cake is a top contender.

The best things are made from chocolate. Ha!

Something that makes me supremely and utterly happy is hearing from old friends.

Sports are more fun in person. Watching on television is boring but being there with the crowds, the sounds, the electricity, and most of all the food make it SO MUCH more fun!

I miss winter, my skinny jeans, my grandma, ninety nine cent a gallon gasoline, Dairy Queen blizzards, and of course my boys.

Right now I am fighting a horrible headache. I should be sleeping it off, but I couldn't miss fill in the blank friday!

Happy Again

2011-06-22T00:08:00.003-06:00

I admit it. I've been back from my jaunt to see Gus for a few days. I've wanted to get on here and write something, but haven't had a chance. You see, there has been a brutal yahtzee tournament happening here in the evenings. We start playing as soon as dinner is cleaned up, then continue to play until late in the night. I'm proud to say, I'm currently in third place (out of four).

My visit to Southern Utah to see Gus was just what I've needed. I love seeing my kids. It fills me up with joy in a way nothing else can. I guess all moms feel that way. I worry about him while he's off doing crazy and sometimes scary things in the Marine Corps. Then when he comes home, and I can touch him and hug him, all seems right again.

I was able to get to know Gus' girlfriend a bit better. I LOVE her! I pray they will stick together and marry when he comes home for good. She is absolutely perfect for him. She challenges him, but she takes care of him too. Plus, she's super cute and will be a great mother when that day comes.

I am happy to tell you I got my hair done while I was there. I finally feel like myself again. I had to get a bit used to the haircut as it's different than anything I've worn before, but it's grown on me and now I love it. This picture doesn't really do it justice, by the way.

I have to give a shout out to the hotel where I stayed. The America's Best Value Inn in Cedar City, UT, gets a big thumbs up from me. The staff was friendly and the rooms were very comfortable. I wanted to stay one more night, but was afraid it wouldn't work out due to the Utah Summer Games Opening Ceremonies being the same night. It's one of Cedar's busiest times of the year. When I talked to the girl at the front desk, not only did she arrange the room for me for an extra night, but she did it at no charge due to Gus being on leave. I still can't get over that. I highly recommend this hotel if you ever find yourself in southern Utah.

Getting away was exactly what I needed. I feel happier and more hopeful than I have in a very long time. Now, if I could only win that yahtzee tournament, life would be perfect.

It's So Good To See You

2011-06-13T19:21:00.000-06:00

Hey. It's been a while, hasn't it? Life has been a tad rough around here the past couple of weeks. It's left me drained... so I couldn't find anything cheerful to say. I know you must be bored silly with all my whining of late.

It's probably teasing to pop in like this, then leave again...but I'm going to. I wanted to make an appearance. You know. Just in case anyone was still coming by. I've missed you.

I'm leaving town for a few days. I'm off to see my boy. Gus is home on leave again. It seems like he was just here... actually he was. But he's back, and I can't let the opportunity to see him pass me by. I never know when I'll have the chance again.

I hope you're happy and only good things have come into your life.

It's my plan to be back to normal when I get home. I hope that's what happens.

See you then.

I love it...

2011-06-06T00:04:00.002-06:00

I saw this on our local news website the other day. It's the story of a father, Dale, who has a wicked sense of humor, dressing in a different costume each day, to wave goodbye to his teen son as he rode off on a school bus. I only wish I had heard about it sooner, as I would have loved to follow along. It would have been great for a laugh a day!

Dale's blog is here. Check it out if you'd like to see every costume of the year. I haven't looked at all of them, but I did look through several pages worth. I think Dale is a riot! Any kid would be lucky to have him as a dad.

I encourage you to visit his blog and enjoy some of his 'get-ups'. Maybe you could pull the same thing on your teenage kid. If my boys were still at home, you can bet I'd do it. I probably wouldn't last the whole school year, but embarrassing my boys for a week or two would be great fun!

fill in the blank friday

2011-06-02T23:15:00.000-06:00

It's Friday! It's also time to fill in the blanks. Be sure to visit Lauren at the little things to we do to join in the fun.

I love smell good lotions and body washes because I feel pretty and girly all day when I wear them. It's my favorite compliment to be told I smell good.

A time when mama knew best was when she encouraged me to marry my ex husband. Things didn't work out for us, but I learned so much from him. He taught me to love, to let loose and have fun and to think outside the box. I would be a completely different (and boring) person if I hadn't spent twenty years of my life with him.

My first kiss went a little like this: I was seventeen (don't laugh), it was not only Valentine's Day but the Sweethearts ball at my high school. My date was honestly the best looking guy there and the whole school was jealous. He was a college guy (!) and had driven hours just to take me to the dance. When he took me home, he leaned in and gave me a light kiss on the lips, then a second, very sweet kiss on the corner of my mouth. It was perfect. I floated around for days! I waited a very long time for that kiss and it was absolutely worth the wait.

My celebrity crush is Tim Daly. I find him to be very attractive. I first loved him when he played Joe Hackett on Wings, but I love him even more now. He definitely gets better with age. I also read he's been married a long time and that makes him even more attractive to me. I love a man who loves his woman.

My splurge of choice is nail polish. Ha! I think I mention nail polish every week when filling in my blanks. But it's true. I never have enough colors and it's fun to try different brands. I can change the color according to my mood, or for an instant pick me up. Besides, well manicured hands are very important.

My biggest accomplishment is raising two United States Marines. That and learning how to make a perfect divinity.

My dance jam of choice is...honestly...I have no idea. If I think of something I'll add it later.

Frustrating

2011-06-02T18:39:00.000-06:00

I'm so embarrassed I haven't updated since the last post. I hadn't planned to let my immature whining sit there so long. You probably think I'm off my rocker, but I'm not. I'm fine. I had a really rough couple of days, but I'm okay now. I tried to write a new post, but I couldn't sign into blogger! Did that happen to any of you? I read there have been problems with the comments on some blogs, but couldn't find anything about not being able to sign in. It was frustrating.

Anyway, I just wanted to write a quick note to say I'm okay and I'm sorry for not updating my blog this week, but honestly, this time it wasn't my fault.

Hopefully, I'll be back with a new fill in the blank post tomorrow. See you then.

TheTruth

2011-05-31T08:49:00.000-06:00

I still cry myself to sleep. Not every night, but sometimes. I still carry an ache in my heart. It won't go away. I still can't believe this happened to me. I have a reoccurring dream about the last months at home...I relive those painful months and the moment it was over. I don't dream it as often, but when it comes, it's just as horrifying. I still wonder if there was anything I could have done to save my marriage. My life, really.

I miss the security of having someone by my side. It's been too long since I've been hugged. Or kissed. I miss our home...our life. I miss my kids...my family. I wish it would never have happened. I'm surrounded by people who love me, yet I feel lonely. I am blessed with all the comforts a person needs, yet I feel homeless.

I know I have to let it go. It needs to fade into the past. I'm trying but I don't know how. I vowed to love him 'for time and all eternity'. It's a mighty bond to break. I am stronger...in many ways. Yet, just as weak in others. I put on a brave smile, while my heart is heavy. I try to do what is expected of me, but I'm a fake. It's been almost two years since my marriage ended, not legally but physically. I hurt as much today as I did the day I left. Time hasn't healed anything. Why?

I Wish He Was Here

2011-05-25T00:02:00.003-06:00

I thank you for indulging me, as you do every year on this date. Today is PJ's birthday. He is my oldest child and one of my sweetest friends. He's pulled me through some rough times, as I have him. I'm so grateful this child was sent to me. I don't think I could have survived my toughest times without his thoughtful support.

It has been several years since I've been able to celebrate his special day with him. He's been out of the country, or too broke to come home and it kills me to not be able to spoil him as I always used to. I would give anything to pick up his favorite lunch from the local Chinese restaurant. He always ordered C9, extra spicy. (I honestly don't have any idea what dish it was, I just remember the item number on the menu.) Later, I would fix his favorite meal for dinner. He would always ask for green chili burritos. I could count on that, and we would top off the meal with an ice cream cake from Dairy Queen. It had to be oreo flavored.

He never asked for much as far as gifts go. He was always happy with whatever he got. I love that about him.

I would give anything to give my boy a big hug today and remind him of all the reasons he means so much to me. I would tell him how proud I am of the person he has become and how much I have loved being his mom.

I haven't seen PJ in more than a year, and while I'm used to these long months of missing him, it just seems like a mom should get to see her son on his birthday!! Maybe next year.

Happy Birthday PJ. I love you.

Sara's Words

2011-05-24T00:07:00.003-06:00

If you know anything about me, you know I love The View. It's a must see every single day for me. I love those women! I don't always agree with them but I respect their opinions and different views of the same issues.

CBS has The Talk. Have you seen it? It's a knock off of the view and for me, it's not must see. However, I do enjoy it occasionally and I think most of the women who host it work perfectly together. It seems a bit more relaxed and casual than The View, but I suppose that's because they don't have Barbara Walters keeping them in shape!

I watched an episode last week where Sara Gilbert spoke of her dream of being asked to speak at her Alma Mater, Yale, graduation ceremonies. She joked Tom Hanks was asked this year, but she was sure she was second on this list. Anyway, she read what she would have said if she had indeed been chosen to address the Yale graduates. I loved it and wanted to save it, so I rewound the video, and wrote it down to share.

"Go after the life you want. Picture it. Grab it. Don't believe anyone's no's, because there will be a lot of them and those are about their limitations and not yours.

Do things that scare you. Jump out of an airplane once in your life (but no more than once). If you're scared to dance, then do it on national television! (She was referring to her own fear of dancing and her challenge to dance on the show)

Travel and when you're there, talk to people you don't know because everyone has a story.

Be original. Be more you. Love with all your heart and get your heart broken. Most importantly, give with all your soul. When you think of just you in anything- work, love, life- you will fail. You succeed when you help others succeed.

And, I'll quote Winston Churchill, "You make a living by what you get. You make a life by what you give. "

I LOVED everything she said.

fill in the blank friday

2011-05-20T00:25:00.000-06:00

Yea! Fill in the blank friday is back! If you want to play along visit Lauren at the little things we do.

People always tell me I look like a scary witch. Just kidding! I sometimes hear I look a bit like Diane Keaton, but only when I'm wearing glasses.

A little bit?? No?

Friends don't let friends get involved with Arnold Schwarzenegger. I am cracking myself up tonight! Okay, I'm not that funny...anyway, friends don't let friends be alone in any situation where they need someone to have their back.

A sunny day is perfect for other people. I prefer the clouds myself. But I suppose a sunny day would come in handy for hiking, golfing or any other outdoor activity.

My favorite accessory is a cheap ring I bought at American Eagle. I know it was mass produced and everyone probably owns one just like it, but I really love how it looks and fits.

If I could afford it I would buy a home on both the east coast, and the west coast and spend my year flying back and forth seeing my boys.

The cure for boredom is a good movie and yummy snacks. Or, perhaps a nap would do it.

I am currently 'in like' with Hulu, dreyers fruit bars (especially pineapple), my newest nail polish (it's a very pretty pink...perfect for summer), the rain we've been having for the past four days, and the Disney movie, Tangled.

Me, Bob and Gandhi

2011-05-19T00:09:00.001-06:00

Trey told me tonight I am his third favorite person ever. The other two?

Bob Marley

and

Gandhi.

I'm in pretty good company, don't you think?

Darn It

2011-05-17T00:03:00.000-06:00

Okay, so you know how I've been complaining about my hair the past couple of weeks? I told you how horrible it looked. Remember? It was much too long, fuzzy and outgrown. That's not to mention the massive amount of grey roots that added to the already terrible look.

I hate looking for a new stylist...it's the worst part of moving to a new town. I stressed about who to call and where to go for several weeks, before Becky had finally had enough! She picked up the phone book, chose a salon at random, then called and made an appointment. I was so grateful.

I arrived at the chosen salon at the appointed time and was pleasantly surprised to see someone warm and friendly greet me. That was a good sign. The only problem? Her hair was soooooo dated. It was cute, but my best friend in high school almost thirty years ago had the very same cut. I was worried.

We had a conversation about what I was looking for and I started to feel confident she could make it happen. I didn't ask for much, just a medium brown color with a few highlights, and a simple haircut that would sit at my shoulders. Oh, and I warned her not to use any red. I hate red on me. She got out her color book and we chose the color together, so I was pretty sure it would all be okay.

Let me say this, she was darling. She made me feel very comfortable as she chattered about her kids and her life. She seemed to know what she was doing so I relaxed and enjoyed having someone pamper me for a bit. I was really hoping I had easily found 'the one' I would rely on for my hair needs as long as I live here.

You probably already know what I'm going to say next. My. hair. is. awful. I mean it. I hate it so much! The color is not brown. It's not even in the brown family. I'm not really sure what color it is. I mean it's probably a bit in the brown family, but it's more golden with a red tint. I was so unhappy when I saw it, but at that point, what could I say? I smiled and said thank you, then I cried all the way home.

I hate it. I truly do. I hate everything about it. I hate the color. I hate the cut. I hate that somehow my shirt got a blob of bleach on it, thus ruining it and no one mentioned a thing about it! The only thing I like about it is it's not longer grey. I seriously considered going somewhere else to have the color fixed, but decided money is precious and I can easily just stay inside for the next several weeks.

I had such high hopes, but I guess in two months, I will start the search... and the stress all over again. I can hardly wait.

He Has Heart

2011-05-11T21:47:00.000-06:00

A sad day has come. PJ is no longer an active duty Marine. Actually, that's a lie. He is on what's called 'terminal leave', which means he is using up the last of his leave before he will be officially finished. But the reality is, he's done.

This sweet boy of mine was a chubby freshman in High School the first time I heard of his desire to serve in the Corps. He didn't tell me, he confided in my aunt. She whispered to me later what he had told her. My heart sank when she told me of his plans. It was the last job I wanted him to want.

I have a vivid memory of being a young girl, who probably just listened to the news on television, feeling terrified of Russia. I dreamed that night of war, and of my kids not only dying while fighting, but of the horribleness of war. I remember waking, so scared and praying if I had boys they would not have to fight.

Later, as I approached high school age, I worried still that if I had sons, war would break out while they were at enlistment age. I again prayed we would have peace during those years so they would be safe.

So, when PJ was choosing to become a Marine when I had spent so much time preparing for him not to be, I was baffled. I was also a tiny bit mad, though I'm not sure why. It didn't take me long to see his passion and determination so what else could I do but get behind him and support him all the way.

I love both of my boys and they are special to me for different reasons, but I'll tell you...this big boy of mine worked so hard, and pushed through huge obstacles to become a marine. It's all he wanted and nothing would stop him. When he left home he was an overweight teddy bear, and when we saw him at his boot camp graduation he had transformed into a thin, tight, super tough marine. His drill instructor told him he had more heart than anyone he's ever had come through. It meant a lot to PJ and it meant the world to his dad and I.

He has chosen to stay in California and live with friends and I know he'll take on the world again as he transitions into being a 'civilian'. I'm thrilled for him to start his new life, but I'm a bit sad for me. I am now the marine mom of one and while I'm still more than proud of that title, it's going to take some getting used to.

I Choose Happy

2011-05-10T00:03:00.001-06:00

I don't think it's any secret the past couple of years have not been my happiest. I've been through some very difficult days. Complete healing is coming slow to me, but lately I've realized trying to find even the smallest bit of happy in each day really helps. It could be as simple as sharing a funny memory with my sister or letting my dog lick my face but it helps volumes in chasing the blues away.

This afternoon Becky told me of a news piece she saw on CBS News Sunday Morning titled The Pursuit of Happiness. She was excited about what she heard, and told me a bit about it, but I wanted to know more. Luckily it was easy to find and I was able to watch the entire story. It was really quite interesting.

I would take forever and I would bore you to death if I tried to summarize it all for you. There was too much information. But in a nut shell, we need to think about happiness and what will make us happy. It's suggested a good place to start is with our body. Simple things as getting enough sleep and finding time to exercise every day will increase our energy and mood and will allow us to focus on other things that will make us happy.

Something else that was suggested was improving relationships. If we take the time to visit those we love, to connect and build stronger relationships it will add to our happiness.

I think both those examples are kind of obvious, but honestly, how committed are we to them? I know I've certainly slacked off in both areas the past years.

If you want to be more happy than you currently are, then I encourage you click here to listen to the news story. It is filled with information that might motivate you, as it has me, to choose happy.

I Belong In The Mountains

2011-05-09T00:01:00.001-06:00

Maybe you remember last month when I shared my hair looked like this:

It doesn't look like that anymore, now it looks like this:

If only. At least the Donald doesn't have two inches of grey outgrowth. He is so lucky. He gets whatever he wants.

I still haven't had my hair cut or colored and it's horrible. The grey is so obvious it screams and the shape from my last cut is gone. It's overgrown and fuzzy which would be great if I wanted to live in the mountains with only a sheep and a tent, but I kind of like civilization. Call me crazy.

I took this picture with my cell phone's horrible camera. But you get the idea.

Please someone help me. I need a husband and what kind of man wants to be strapped to someone who looks like this?? I'm doomed.

The problem is I have to find a new stylist and I just cannot decide where to start. Becky and I have driven all over, looking at salons and we haven't found a single one either one of us is willing to try. We find a reason for not liking any one of them, but truthfully, I think we're just scared.

They say it's only hair. But when you don't have anything special going for you then hair is everything!

I can't stand it any longer, so, I am going to have it done this week. Please pray for me. I am terrified.

They Did It Again

2011-05-05T00:05:00.000-06:00

Did you hear Marie Osmond remarried her first husband, Stephen Craig, today? I have never been much of a Marie fan, but she has been through so much in her lifetime that it thrills me she has found happiness.

I don't know why their marriage ended so long ago, but it's great they could get past what broke them apart to give it another try. I imagine there was a lot of talking, listening and forgiving before love could grow again. I think it's amazing they were able to not only heal, but also to find that deep kind of love for each other once more. It's truly inspiring.

I have to say, I was surprised when I heard she wore the same wedding gown she was married in the first time. It must have made her day all the more special and let's be honest...I salute anyone who can still wear their gown thirty years later. But I wonder why she'd want to. I mean, it's really none of my business, but I know the next time I marry, I would never want to wear my white gown or carry a bouquet of flowers again. I would choose something a little more simple and relaxed than my puffy white dress. But that's just me I guess.

I hope they're both very happy for a very long time. I keep saying I believe in 'happily ever after' and this is just another reason why.

My Not So Royal Comments on the Royal Wedding

2011-05-03T00:01:00.002-06:00

I loved watching the royal wedding and wish I had blogged about it Friday, when it was still fresh and exciting. I know it's old news now that four days have passed, but dang it, everyone else in the world has had their say about the day and I want mine too.

When Kate and her father drove through the streets toward the abby, all I could think was "Holy cow those windows are clean!!" What I would give to have the royal detail team work on my car. I don't think my windows were that clear on the day they were installed...and I'm not even kidding.

These girls make me laugh. This is totally something I would have done back in the day.

Princess Beatrice's hat was horrible. But I think she knew it and wore it out of spite. I can just hear she and Eugenie talking the night before the wedding..."Those dang boys get all the attention and I'm just sick of it! I don't care if it's Wills day, I am going to steal some of his thunder come hell or high water..."

Kate was beautiful, as was Pippa, but for me, I admired mom Carole Middleton's dress the most. I found it to be elegant, appropriate and the perfect choice for her daughters wedding. It's not hard to see where her daughters get their looks and grace.

Holy cow that's a lot of people.

Becky and I heard on television that Victoria Beckham brought maternity clothing for Kate. It was mentioned she and William would have children sooner than later and Victoria wanted to introduce Kate to her line. I laughed. Becky was greatly disturbed by this. That made me laugh more.

William is cute, but my heart belongs to the devilish Prince Harry. I adore him.

It's the stuff fairy tales are made of.

My absolute favorite moment of the day.

Half Way There

2011-05-02T00:03:00.004-06:00

I sincerely apologize for being gone for so long. I had no intention of missing a whole week of posting! My plan was to only miss two days, but the unexpected popped up so it couldn't be helped.

I completely enjoyed my few days with Gus. It worked out that both Easter and his birthday fell within those days. How lucky am I?

We spent Easter at my sister, Sam's house. She prepared a delicious dinner then we spent the evening visiting and catching up. I used to watch her kids when they little and have always felt an extra special bond with them. I don't see them as much as I'd like to so it was really nice to have all day Easter with them.

Tuesday, was Gus' birthday. I wanted to take him out for dinner to celebrate, but he asked if I could cook for him instead. Seriously...nothing could have made me happier. He requested one of his favorite meals, teriyaki chicken and fried rice. We also had ice cream cake from Dairy Queen because growing up, it's what he asked for every single year.

Gus and his cousin, Al are the same age. They were best friends as little guys and now, they each serve in the military. Al joined the National Guard, and Gus, the Marine Corps. Of course we had to have pictures of them, each in their dress uniforms. Al is being deployed at the end of the month, so taking time to do this meant a lot to all of us.

(The boys insisted on a picture with their moms. Obviously, neither Sam or I was prepared for it. Yikes! )

I was also able to spend time with Gus and his girlfriend. I adore her. She is perfect for him. She is super sweet but keeps him in line too. I told Gus she is an answer to my prayers. He was so depressed after my and his dad's divorce that he really needed someone to hold onto. She came into his life at exactly the right moment and I am truly grateful for that.

It was hard to send Gus back to North Carolina. It always is. In a couple of weeks, he will officially be half way through his four years. It's gone so fast! I mentioned it to him and he scoffed at me. He said it's just crawling by. He's wrong. It will be over before he knows it and I'll bet he misses it. But I won't. I can't wait until he's home for good.

Easter

2011-04-24T00:14:00.007-06:00

I'll be spending my Easter morning in the car, driving to my hometown to see Gus! It will certainly bring painful memories to be back there, but I'll do my best to focus solely on my baby boy.

I miss this crazy child so much!

I was hoping PJ would be able to make it too, but it didn't work out. It's been almost two years since I've seen them together, at the same time. I'm grateful they're both healthy and doing well, but my heart aches from missing them so much.

Happy Easter everyone.

fill in the blank friday

2011-04-21T22:32:00.002-06:00

It's been several weeks since I've participated in fill in the blank friday. I'm delighted to be joining in tonight and I hope you'll do the same. It's loads of fun.

Fridays are not my favorite day. It means the weekend is starting and I don't hear from my guys as much. They tend to have plenty to do on Saturday and Sunday and therefore don't spend as much calling to talk to me. It's lonely. Do you feel sorry for me?

Dryers fruit bars, looking through old family pictures, spending time with my sisters and maple frosted donuts make me terribly happy.

Something that inspires me is spending time with children. It's such a wonderful reminder of what is most important and it also makes me want to make the world a better place so they can grow up in peace and enjoy the childhood they deserve.

If I had the day off I would (actually I do have the day off) sleep as late as I wanted to, play on my computer for hours and bake something sweet to snack on.

If I had to put a label on my home decor style, I would say my style is warm. Some would say it is country, as I'm drawn to barn wood and rusty hooks, but I don't care for the title country because it reminds me of tole painted wood and gingham. (Not that there is anything wrong with that, it's just not my style). Though I like barn wood, I also like to mix it with other styles, making it eclectic, comfortable and welcoming.

Concerning politics I would say I am conservative. I wish our elected leaders would stop their constant bickering and get back to the business of running our country. I long for old fashioned values and the days when the flag and constitution were respected.

I'd like to go to Southern Illinois so I could visit the town where my dad grew up and visit the graves of his family. I know so little about them and it bothers me. Someday, I'll make it there.

Six Thumbs Up, Two Thumbs Down

2011-04-21T00:28:00.001-06:00

Earlier in the year, I cheered for Colin Firth to win Best Actor, for The King's Speech at the Academy Awards. I hadn't seen the movie, I just love Collin and I guess I felt he should win based on his past work in movies such as Pride and Prejudice or even What A Girl Wants and the Bridget Jones movies. He was brilliant in those roles, right? Okay, maybe he wasn't brilliant but he was very attractive and that should count for something.

I finally watched The King's Speech tonight and I honestly felt Colin Firth was, well... brilliant in his role as King George VI. He rightfully earned his Oscar and all the prestige that goes along with it. I was so completely drawn into this movie that it didn't matter I was tired, or needed a bathroom break. I just wanted to see what happened next.

After the movie ended I immediately went online to find if Helena Bonham Carter and Geoffrey Rush were also nominated, as I felt they deserved. I was delighted to see they, in fact were but was disappointed neither received a statue that night. I haven't seen all of the other nominated movies, so I can't make the judgement as to whether or not they were robbed, but as far as I am concerned each was brilliant in their roles, truly making The King's Speech, Best Picture.

If you haven't seen it, I highly recommend it and give it two thumbs up!

A few days earlier this week I watched Hereafter on my sister, Becky's recommendation. She refused to tell me what it was about thinking it might ruin the experience for me. I did take a peek on Netflix for the movie description and it reads, "Clint Eastwood directs this supernatural thriller about three very different people and their responses to death, including a hesitant American psychic named George (Matt Damon) who may be able to help the others find answers and peace. Marie (Cécile De France) is a French journalist caught up in the aftereffects of the devastating 2004 tsunami, while in London, young Marcus (Frankie and George McLaren) seeks to contact his deceased twin brother."

I don't really enjoy thrillers, so I was a bit apprehensive about seeing it, but from the moment the film started I was sucked into the story and I enjoyed every minute of it. I couldn't imagine how all three stories would come together and make sense, but they did and it was the perfect ending. I have to warn you though, it was a tear jerker! The tears started and wouldn't stop!

Hereafter also gets two thumbs up!

I have one more movie to comment on, Love and Other Drugs. This movie starred Jake Gyllenhaal as a drug representative for a major pharmaceutical company and Anne Hathaway as a young woman suffering from Parkinson's disease. It is categorized as Romantic Comedy as well as a Romantic Drama. I believe the second description is most correct.

I am ashamed to tell you, I sat through the whole thing though I covered my eyes for three quarters of it. This was a love story with very graphic sex scenes. I admit I am a bit of a prude and anything more graphic than a peck on the cheek embarrasses me. Not really. But close. It was a very touching and sweet story, but it was over the top in, shall we say, physical expressions. I just don't think it's necessary to show so much.

However, I will say that I thought Jake Gyllenhaal and Anne Hathaway were wonderful together. I would be the first in line at the theater if they ever make a true, no sex...just romance...Romantic Comedy together.

Two thumbs up. One thumb for the story and one for Jake and Anne. But I also give this movie two BIG thumbs down for the unnecessary sex scenes. Watch at your own risk.

As always, I'd love to hear what movies you've been watching. Our Netflix queue is dangerously low. So if you have any recommendations, leave a comment. The whole family thanks you.

The Beauty of a Woman

2011-04-19T00:06:00.001-06:00

I adore Audrey Hepburn. I imagine her to be much as her character, Princess Ann, was in Roman Holiday. She seemed elegent and beautiful but also always came across to me as someone who knew how to laugh and have fun. She made everything she did seem effortless.

I mentioned yesterday I went to a Healthy Woman event last week featuring Abby Rike as the speaker. On the back of the program we received was an inspirational message taken from the words of Audrey Hepburn. I thought it was a nice reminder of what's really important, so I wanted to share it with you.

The Beauty of a Woman

"For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.

For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.

For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.

For beautiful hair, let a child run fingers through it once a day.

For poise, walk with the knowledge you'll never walk alone.

The beauty of a woman is not the clothes she wears, the figure
she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of
a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway
to her heart, the place where love resides. The beauty of a
woman is not in a facial mole, but true beauty in a woman
is reflected in her soul."

_ Audrey Hepburn

The Life of a 'Loser'

2011-04-18T00:02:00.001-06:00

(I'm back! I still think my life is uninteresting and therefore I have nothing of interest to say. But no matter. I am going to keep updating and saying whatever is on my mind. It could be interesting...or not. Are you up for it?)

Abby Rike

I've never watched The Biggest Loser, have you? Apparently a season to two ago, there was a popular contestant by the name of Abby Rike. She has a heart breaking story and through her courage and weight loss, she inspired many. I was lucky enough to have the opportunity to hear her speak last week.

Just in case you don't know anything about Abby, like I didn't, I'll share a few highlights from the program we were given. "Abby was a high school theater and debate teacher for thirteen years. She and husband, Rick, led their shcool to an overall state speech championship as well as numerous state speech qualifiers and two state champions. Abby was voted Teach of the Year in 2003."

"Abby Rike, a loyal hard working, lover of life, faced and unfathomable tragedy in October 2006. In light of losing her beloved husband, 5 1/2 year old daughter and 2 1/2 week old son in a fatal car accident..."

Following the wreck, she graduated with a Masters of Education mainting a 4.0 grade point average. Then though a series of events, she befriended a previous "Loser"who encouraged her to apply to be on the show. She was chosen in May 2009 with a starting weight of 247 pounds. During the show, she lost 46 pounds while at the ranch and an additional 54 pounds when she went home. That's a 100 lbs. folks! Impressive!

I found her to be charming as she shared her struggle with weight, the loss of her family and the challenge of losing weight on the show. She shared 'inside information' about other people from her season as well as the coaches. The audience responded well to that, but I had no clue what was so funny as I have never seen it. After she spoke she had a question and answer period which was informative as she answered questions about everything from weight loss tips to what is Jillian Michaels really like?

By the way she has a book coming out May 4th of this year. It's called WORKING IT OUT, A Journey of Love, Loss and Hope. You can read more about it on her website here.

It was a fun evening and I'm glad I went. I plan to watch The Biggest Loser on Hulu and see what I'm missing out on! If you ever get the chance to hear Abby speak, I highly recommend it.

I'm So Sorry

2011-04-10T23:21:00.000-06:00

I've hit a huge block and I don't have a single thing to say. Every day I come to write and instead, I close it up after sitting here, staring at the screen for what seems like hours.

I am not leaving my blog. But I do need a couple more days to get my thoughts together. I promise to be back soon. Thanks for hanging in there with me.

A Peek Inside

2011-04-06T05:38:00.000-06:00

I've been sitting here for more than an hour trying to come up with something interesting to write. I just can't think of a single thing. But I don't want to let another day go without positing something so I've decided to share the next six random thoughts that enter my brain. I'm warning you...this is going to be great fun. Yep.

1. I've been catching up on the latest Jimmy Kimmel episodes on Hulu tonight. Last Friday he had Katie Holmes on, and I'm sorry but I enjoy her. I know I am well within the minority on that, but I really like her. I think she seems really sweet, HOWEVER, the girl really needs to hire a stylist. She dresses so boring and frumpy. Please Katie... hire someone to help you. I'm pretty sure you can afford it.

2. Jimmy Kimmel had the most hilarious clip on the same episode. If you watched Celebrity Apprentice, you might have seen MeatLoaf's screaming fit this past Sunday. JK put the entire rant to a Bugs Bunny/ Yosemite Sam cartoon and it is hilarious! Check it out here.

3. We watched The Bucket List on television tonight. When it ended, Becky asked if Rob Reiner died. Greg assured her he had, then they had a long conversation about how sad it is because he made really good movies. I didn't remember him dying so I looked it up online later, and I couldn't find anything about it. So hopefully he is alive and well and still making good movies.

4. PJ only has two months left before he leaves the Marine Corps. At first I was disappointed he wasn't going to stay in at least another four years, but now I'm excited for him. He wants to stay in California and is determined to make it work. He's been lucky enough to find a great place to live at a really great price so that gives him a good head start. I'm so proud of my boy. He's been a good Marine and he deserves to get out and enjoy life while he's young.

5. I need my hair cut and colored in the worst way. It looks so awful that it's beginning to affect my mood. I hate that. I need to find someone new to go to as I can no longer justify traveling four hours to have it done by my favorite stylist. It's just so scary to trust someone new! I know it's only hair, but I couldn't bear a bad cut right now..

6. Trey's junior prom is coming soon. He is taking his girlfriend of the past few months. Neither of my boys dated during high school and as a result they didn't go to prom. I can't believe all that has gone into getting Trey ready for his. He and his mom have rented the tux, bought new shoes, ordered flowers, bought tickets, ordered pictures, planned a day date, and made reservations at an expensive restaurant for dinner! All his date has had to do is buy a dress and order a boutineer. Trey's date is one lucky girl. I hope she realizes it.

Well there you go. A peek inside my brain. I wonder if it's what you expected?

You've Got Big Dreams?

2011-04-04T05:02:00.001-06:00

"You've got big dreams? You want fame? Well fame costs...and right here is you start paying. In sweat."

Do you remember that line? It was from Fame, the television series that ran in the eighties. It was my favorite program then and I still love it as much now. I've been revisiting the first two seasons on DVD for the past couple of weeks.

It's been almost thirty years since it first aired, and it still holds the same magic for me as it did back then. Every episode is filled with music, dance and friendship. It's about staying true to yourself while chasing your dreams. I admit, it's a tad cheesy and very predictable, but who cares? Not me.

Back before Napster was shut down, and file sharing was still legal, I made a CD of songs from Fame so I can enjoy the music wherever I am. I always have that disc in my car. After my divorce (yes. I'm still talking about it) I was listening while driving from my brother's house to visit my sister. I was feeling defeated and empty and looking for something to take my mind off my problems, when the song I Still Believe In Me played. I was so touched by the words, that whenever I feel down, I sit in my car, turn the volume up and listen to it. I always feel like I can do anything after that.

If you missed Fame the first time around, or you want to revisit like I have, Hulu has the first two seasons on their site. Just click here to start watching. I also found this link to a reunion special the BBC did in 2003. It was Gene Anthony Ray's final appearance before passing away due to complications from a stroke. He was crazy talented and the world is an emptier place without him.

I'm not looking for fame, but I do have big dreams. Thanks to the Kids from Fame, I believe I can still achieve them. All it's going to take is a little sweat.

Back...for the time being

2011-03-28T22:33:00.000-06:00

You may or may not have noticed I temporarily deleted my blog. It was a rash decision and I somewhat regret it. So I've undeleted it for the time being.

I'm not sure what I want to do with it, but I do know I need some time to think it through. I am going to leave it up for a few days while I think it over. I am thinking I may start a new blog and retire this one. I just don't know yet.

I do promise to come back in a few days and explain my behavior. Please bear with me.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

It's Awful

2011-03-25T10:18:00.000-06:00

Trey has been trying to talk his parents into a dog. They say no because he will be leaving the nest soon and they don't want the responsibility right now. So finally, after months of debate, they came to a compromise and last Friday Trey purchased a peach faced parrot. He loves his bird. He comes home from school every day and immediately gets the bird and puts him on his shoulder and carries him around all day.

This morning, he forgot and left his bedroom door opened when he left for school. I didn't notice, when my dog and I got up for the day. I went into the bathroom and when I came out, well, you can guess what I saw.

I am sick to my stomach about this! I just don't know how I will face Trey when he gets home today.

I am the worst Aunt ever.

F U N E X?

2011-03-24T08:39:00.000-06:00

When we were kids, my sister Sam and I loved to make up new languages. It would make mom crazy because we refused to speak to her normally for days after we invented each one. I thought we were so clever, but looking back, we were really just stupid. Ha!

One day, I read a small article in our local newspaper about using letters as words. I forget the official name for this type of conversation, but it gave this example:

Person 1: F U N E X
Person 2: S! V F X
Person 1: F U N E M
Person 2: S! V F M
Person 1: O K. I F M N X

We loved that stupid conversation. It has made us laugh for years. We even gave Sam's old boyfriend a wedding gift based on it. We bought a frying pan and filled it with all things ham and eggs. Good times. Good times.

A couple of nights ago, after waking from a bad dream, this came into my head and I haven't been able to shake it. I googled this morning, looking for the correct name for this usage of letters, but was unsuccessful. I did however find this delightful video using my and Sammy's beloved conversation. It's a bit different from the conversation we've said for years, but I hope you enjoy it anyway.

Lordy Lordy

2011-03-22T00:09:00.010-06:00

...look who's forty!

It's my baby sister, Becky's birthday today! She's been dreading it to the point of irritability for the past couple of months. I don't know why it's such a big deal for her, but it is. Because I am the big sister, I tease her to tears about it! I have to...it's my job.

In all seriousness, I love this girl. I love all my sisters, but from the moment she came into the world, Becky was special to me. She was born on a Monday morning and because our mom and dad were at the hospital all day, I had to miss Brownies to stay home with my other two little sisters. I hated brownies. So much. (Not to be confused with brownies the chocolate treat. I love those!) I think that is the reason I immediately bonded with the little babe who got me out of going to my dreaded scout meeting.

On my twentieth birthday, our mom was in a hospital in five hours away. I lived alone in my own apartment at the time, and felt lonely and sad to not have anyone to celebrate my birthday with me. I received a call that a gift was left for me on the kitchen counter at mom's house. I drove down and discovered an empty glass jar. That was my gift. I felt ungrateful as I cried a good cry. My birthdays have always been awful, but that's another story.

Anyway, I went back to my apartment, and threw myself a huge pity party. (It was my party...I could cry if I wanted to). A couple of hours later, my sister Becky arrived, with the jar, and she had made a pretty flower arrangement and put inside. It was so sweet. But the kicker is, she was suffering from rheumatic fever, and could barely walk. Yet she managed to crawl up the flight of stairs to my apartment to make my day a little happier. I will always love that girl for her unselfish and very thoughtful gift that day.

She has been my best friend for most of my life, and my hero for the past two years. I can honestly say I would have not made it through without her. I love her with all my heart. I think she's one of the most amazing people I've ever known.

So happy birthday little sister. You may be old, but you'll never be as old as I am!

PS. If you're reading this Becky, please forgive me for the picture...it's the only one I could find with all of us in it.

I Stole It and You Can Too

2011-03-16T00:05:00.002-06:00

One of my favorite blogs is The Glamorous Life of a Housewife. I adore Whitney...she's a young mother of one of the cutest boys around, Levi (I die! That child is so darling), and wife to her best friend. She makes me smile with her honest posts of trying to balance being a wife, mother, daughter and all around good person. I learn so much from her!

Last week she posted this fun A to Z fill in and she encouraged us to steal it for ourselves. So that's what I did! If you want to, please steal it from me!

A. Age: Forty Seven...or a hundred. They're the same thing.

B. Bed size: Twin. It has it's advantages...I can turn the electric blanket up as high as I want to.

C. Chore you dislike: Cleaning the bathrooms. All that bending over hurts my head.

D. Dogs: One. She's a Shi Tzu Jack Russell mix. She's the sweetest animal ever!

E. Essential start to your day: A trip to the bathroom, brush my teeth and a text from my best buddy.

F. Favorite color: I like them all!

G. Gold or silver: White gold. I like the silver color better, but the yummy weight of gold is necessary.

H. Height: 5' 5"

I. Instruments you play(ed): Piano a bit. Or at least, I used to.

J. Job title: I'm a little fuzzy on that one currently.. but I'll forever be a mom. Does that count?

K. Kids: Two boys I adore.

L. Live: With my sister in Northern Utah.

M. Mom’s name: Carol to most people, Grandma Bullock to her grandchildren and Grandma Carol to the neighbor kids.

N. Nicknames: Janer, Janie, Jane the Pain (I hate that one)

O. Overnight hospital stays: Four: once for each of my babies, my brain surgery and a 'female procedure'

P. Pet peeves: Rude people, booming music, those dang motorized shopping carts!

Q. Quote from a movie: "Not like weird weird but like exciting weird."

S. Siblings: 1 older brother and 3 younger sisters

T. Time you wake up: Usually between 8 and 9

U. Underwear: Yep!

V. Vegetables you don’t like: I can't think of a single one...

W. What makes you run late: Nothing. I am ALWAYS on time.

X. X-rays you’ve had: Mostly brain scans

Y. Yummy food you make: Chocolate chip cookies, macaroni and cheese and green chili burritos.

Z. Zoo animal favorites: Kangaroo... because seriously who doesn't love them?

Will They or Won't They Live Happily Ever After?

2011-03-15T00:09:00.002-06:00

I had a lovely, lazy day today. It was Becky's day off and we spent the morning, in our pajamas watching TV and sharing our opinions on everything we saw. I didn't even get in the shower until three in the afternoon. Gross but so worth it.

We just finished watching the finale to The Bachelor and After The Final Rose. I have so much to say about all of it, but I just don't have time to type it all out right now. I need to get to bed early because Becky and I are going into the city in the morning. I will say this though, I loved Emily all the way through and I'm so happy Brad chose her. As for after the rose, I appreciate their honesty and the fact they didn't pretend everything was hunky dory....but maybe they each said a bit too much?? I honestly hope they can get past all of this and live happily ever after.

I loved what Ryan said when he was asked to give them advice. He said, speaking to Emily, if you were told you were going to find the perfect man for you, who you would love with all your heart and you would live a happy life with him, but you had to go through some hurt first, would you still choose him? Amen Ryan! I loved that. It's exactly how I feel about not only The Bachelor/ette relationships, but it's true in life also. There is always bad with the good. You have to accept both.

With that, I am off to bed. If you watched the show I would love to hear your thoughts. I can't wait until May when The Bachelorette starts! I wish I could stay awake to watch Jimmy Kimmel Live to see who she will be, but I'll just have to read the boards tomorrow to find out. I really hope it's Michelle, but I think it's going to be Ashley H.

I'm off to bed where I will hopefully be having sweet dreams about my own happily ever after!

fill in the blank Friday

2011-03-10T23:51:00.001-07:00

Happy Friday! It's time to celebrate the end of the week by playing along with fill in the blank Friday! After you read my answers, be sure to click over to the little things we do to join in the fun!

My biggest accomplishment in life so far is raising two United States Marines. Not only are they proudly serving our country, they're amazing kids who make my life so happy. I just miss those boys so much.

My favorite place to sit in my house is at the kitchen table eating something. Ha! I'm just joking about the food (kind of) but I love sitting there with the family. We play games, talk about the day or share dessert. It's nice to be all together.

My fashion philosophy is keep it simple. I'm not much of a fashionista, though I'd love to be. I am usually wearing jeans and a simple top or sweater. While I do enjoy dressing up occasionally, I honestly prefer comfort over style. Stacy and Clinton would be disappointed in me.

Something every girl should have is a well fitted bra. I think it's awful to see someone dressed cute, and not have their 'girls' in the right place. Even worse is to see someone not dressed cute with the girls flying free.
*Disclaimer: I need to schedule a bra fitting.

If you looked in my purse right now you'd find my wallet, lotion, dental floss, lip balm, lip gloss, lemon heads, keys, sunglasses, a prescription, gum and Altoids.

My favorite music right now is anything John Mayer. I just cannot get enough of him.

My favorite part of my body is my hands. God didn't bless me with much, body-wise, but he did give me long legs and pretty hands. They're starting to get old, but I am still receive compliments on them.

Oh Happy Day!

2011-03-10T00:09:00.002-07:00

A happy thing happened while we were in Salt Lake Tuesday. My sister's family went from three of them looking like this:

To one of them looking like this:

Trey got his braces off! I don't think I've ever seen such a happy person before in my life. He spent the entire evening rummaging through the kitchen looking for foods he couldn't eat before. His first choice? An apple. Me? I would have chosen a caramel apple. Or heck, let's be real. I would have skipped the apple and just had the caramel!

Greg sent his son a text message today that read, "Hey No Brace Face". It made Trey's day. His happy face made mine.

It's Shocking But True

2011-03-08T00:06:00.003-07:00

You're never going to believe this. You'll think I'm making it up to pull your leg. But, I swear it's true. It's completely true.

Do you remember my rant about these things?

Well, Becky and I were in Walmart today when we were almost run down (again) by one of those awful motorized scooters. The driver was a middle aged man, who politely stopped and said "I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to almost run into you." Then he waited until we passed before proceeding. It was shocking!

I swear it's the truth. Amazing, huh? I seriously wanted to hug the man. I noticed Becky had the same impulse. The poor guy would've wondered what kind of crazy women he almost ran into if we had followed through.

Anyway, I'd better get to bed. We're going into the big city tomorrow morning. I just wanted to assure you, there are good motorized scooter drivers in the world. I'm sure you'll rest easier tonight knowing that.

Thank Heavens For Netflix

2011-03-07T00:17:00.002-07:00

I haven't been feeling well the past week or so. I'm not sick, just dizzy. It's hard to do anything when my head is spinning around. I keep hoping when I wake in the morning, it will be gone, but so far no luck. I still have my fingers crossed for tomorrow though.

We had a quiet weekend. My niece came home. One of her college friends got married and she came up for the reception. The whole family went, but I chose to stay home. It was a good decision. I don't get a lot of alone time, so I quite enjoyed it. I went to Walmart. I need a new mouse pad. I am looking for one of those with the gel wrist support. My wrist has been aching quite a bit. Of course, they didn't have one. In fact, they didn't have any mouse pads. I think that's lame. I did buy a bag of Reisen chocolate caramels. I love those. So Walmart wasn't a total waste.

We spent quite a bit of time watching movies the past few days. We saw Knight & Day, with Tom Cruise and Cameron Diaz. I was pleasantly surprised with this movie. I thought it was really fun. Becky, who isn't much of a TC fan, mentioned she enjoyed it so much she even forgot he was in it. That made me laugh.

We also watched Diary of a Wimpy Kid....super cute movie. Then we saw Romana and Beezus. Slow but sweet. I am developing a huge crush on Josh Duhamel. It seems he's popping up all over movie land and I'm not complaining. That Fergie is one lucky girl. I can't help but wonder what she did right to deserve him.

Our Netflix cue is getting low, so if you have any suggestions for must see movies, please share. I'd really appreciate it.

Well there you have it...my boring weekend. Thank heavens for Netflix. Can you imagine what the past two days would have been like without it? I shudder to think.

Fill In The Blank Friday

2011-03-04T00:22:00.001-07:00

It's that time of the week to fill in our blanks! If you want to join in, just click right here to visit the little things we do to join in.

The phrase or punctuation I most overuse is ... I think it's called an ellipsis. I can't help myself. I enjoy them. The phrase I overuse is probably "I can't take it anymore". I am being a big baby when I say it. But life isn't how I want it right now and I just happen to freak out about it too much.

Today I am thankful for a family who loves me, new mascara, warm socks, country radio, facebook (so I can peek in on my boys lives) and easter candy.

My best friend is my sister. She spoils me constantly and listens to my crazy rants about Hollywood celebrities even though she usually has no idea who I'm talking about. She encourages me to be the best I can be and she bakes the best brownies on earth.

A quirky thing about me is I like to eat my food in layers. If I have a hamburger, I eat the top bun, then the toppings followed by the meat and finally the bottom bun. I won't do this in a restaurant but at home, I always do.

This weekend I am not doing anything special. I will do my laundry and give the dog a bath. Other than that, I don't have anything planned.

Something that worries me is what is going to happen to me. What will the future bring? Will I marry again? Will I have my own home again? Will I die alone? Will my boys turn out okay?

On my nightstand you would find my iPod, a book by Gene Wilder called Kiss Me Like A Stranger, Burts Bees lip balm, my clock radio and a control for my heated mattress cover.

Poking Fun At Charlie

2011-03-03T22:49:00.000-07:00

I am greatly disturbed by the whole Charlie Sheen drama of late. I really don't understand why we give so much attention to famous people who are making train wrecks of their lives. We did it with Brittany Spears, Lindsay Lohan, and now Charlie.

I try to avoid any news story or interview with Charlie. I think it's ridiculous what he's done to the cast and crew of Two and a Half Men. I also think this guy is so far gone, he isn't ever coming back. His brain is fried. As for the 'goddesses' they need a swift kick in the backside for their contribution to this whole mess and I hope Charlie never sees his kids again.

How's that for an opinion?

All of that aside, I did happen upon these two videos poking fun at Charlie Sheen. I thought they were clever and humorous. One is from Late Night with Jimmy Fallon and the other from Jimmy Kimmel Live! I hope they make you laugh like they did me.

What Makes Me Happy

2011-03-02T00:06:00.006-07:00

I wanted to share some of my favorite things with you. I think it's fun to hear what someone else can't live without. Sometimes I can identify with it, and sometimes not. Here are mine. They might not be new finds, but they each make my life a little bit happier.

First up, Victoria's Secret lotion, body wash, body butter and body spray in Secret Charm.

Nothing makes me feel better than starting the day smelling yummy. The lotion and body butter leave my skin feeling soft while the spray leaves a hint of scent for the entire day. It thrills me when I'm told I smell good, and that happens often with this fresh scent.

Next, Biosilk Silk Therapy.

It feels like baby oil when it pours out of the bottle, but as I put it into my hair, the oil feeling leaves, and softness replaces it. My hair is very dry, but after using this leave in treatment, it feels and looks healthy. I couldn't live without it.

All my jeans were dirty the other morning, so I pulled a pair out of the drawer I hadn't worn in a while. I sort of out grew them last summer and didn't think I'd be able to button them up, but I was desperate, so I tried. I was surprised and delighted they not only buttoned easily, but they fit great! It seems I lost weight and didn't even try! It's nice to wear my favorite jeans again. I'm a Levi's girl. I love not only how they fit, but how they soften as they wash.

Several times a week, we turn the television off in the evening and play a game or two of Farkle. It's a dice game where you can play it safe, or take your chance for the big score. I really enjoy it because it's so easy to play. I don't have to think a lot. I just roll my dice and see what comes up!

Don't hate me but I LOVE The Bachelor/Bachelorette. I try to watch every season and I let myself believe the love story that unfolds throughout the weeks. I love reading the spoilers and getting involved in gossip. I cheer on the 'good' girls and boo the 'bad' ones. I can't help it. I'm a sucker for love and I've said it before, I truly believe in happy endings.

A new television program I'm loving this year is Harry's Law. It stars Kathy Bates as Harriet Korn, a well respected attorney who sets up shop in an abandoned shoe store. She learns everything happens for a reason as she settles into her new neighborhood. You can find it on NBC, Mondays 10/9c.

Finally, I love the CD, What I Love About Sunday. I've owned this for a few years, but rediscovered it recently while looking for a different CD. It's a compilation of popular country songs with a spiritual message. Tim Mcgraw, Randy Travis, Billy Dean and Wynonna Judd are among the artists highlighted. I play it over and over, never tiring of the music or the message.

There you have it. These are some of the things currently making me happy. Of course, it's not a complete list. Nothing makes me happier than my boys. You probably already knew that.

The Best and Worst of The Academy Awards (According To Me)

2011-02-28T00:06:00.008-07:00

It's only been a few minutes since the wrap up of the 83rd Academy Awards and I'm sad. It's the ending of awards show season, which is one of my favorite times of year. It's no secret how I adore the red carpet before the program begins. Seeing everyone dressed up and looking gorgeous makes me giddy. I can only imagine how thrilling it truly must be to walk down that carpet with the best of the best.

I may be alone in this, but I also enjoyed the awards program this year. I thought Anne Hathaway was refreshing as a host. I'm not too sure about James Franco though. I'm guessing someone gave him a happy pill to calm his nerves, perhaps? Or maybe he was simply scared to death (which I doubt). Either way, I enjoyed not having to listen to lame jokes by the hosts, and badly scripted conversations between presenters. It just seemed more honest and real...even if it was a tad ho-hum at times.

But really, who cares about the program? Not me...I only want to talk about the dresses. It is my opinion the gowns this year, were for the most part, boring. I wasn't able to find one that I thought was 'to die for'. Of course there were certainly pretty dresses but nothing extraordinary.

These are my picks for worst dressed:

Annette Benning.
It felt old and grandma-ish. I think she is beautiful! I would have loved to see her in something more Academy Awards worthy and not so mother of the bride.

Sharon Stone.
She looks old and tired and her look does nothing to flatter her.

Florence Welch.
I wasn't familiar with her until an interview with Ryan Seacrest on the red carpet. I thought she was sweet and I liked her. She is a musician who performed one of the nominated numbers in the program. Even though she's not an actress, she is still attending the Oscar's. Couldn't she have found a more suitable gown?

This next set of photographs are neither best or worst dressed, but rather dresses I want to comment on:

Helena Bonham Carter.
I hated what she wore to the Golden Globes. I felt she was trying to hard to be different. She looked as if she forgot to fix her hair,then pulled her dress out of the hamper. I'm not even going to mention the mismatched shoes. It was a mess. Tonight however, I loved her dress. I thought it expressed her personality while being unlike any other dress there. It was well put together and she looked beautiful.

Jennifer Lawrence.
Her gown is is simple and fits her well. It's neither great nor terrible and I find it a bit boring for event. My sister commented it reminded her of the Baywatch swimsuits. When it was shown only from the waist up, we could easily imagine her running down the beach to assist David Hasslehoff with an emergency.

Mandy Moore.
I honestly didn't recognize her when she was first shown tonight. Her dress is lovely as is she. But I feel frustrated as she is young and hip, but this look is mature and safe. She did however, look perfect when she performed during the program.

Now for my favorites. Best dressed:

Gwyneth Paltrow.
When I first saw her, I didn't care for her dress at all. But as they kept showing her throughout the red carpet event, it grew on me and became a favorite. I think she looks beautiful. Everything is perfect. She is certainly getting better with age.

Hailee Steinfeld.
She looked lovely tonight. She mentioned she worked with designer, Marchesa in designing the look. What a thrill that must have been for her! She was nominated for Best Supporting Actress for her work in True Grit. I wish she had won. I was really rooting for her.

Hilary Swank.
This was my favorite dress of the evening. I loved the color and especially the feathered train. She looked amazing. What I would give for those arms!

Halle Berry
The color is perfect, the fit is perfect, the style is perfect. She is gorgeous. Simply gorgeous.

Finally, I've saved the best for last.

My boyfriend, Colin Firth, Best Actor. Can we please give him a round of applause?
(I just really love looking at him).

Now it's your turn. I would love to hear who your favorites, and not so favorites were. My opinions never seem to match up with the experts, but I don't care. Not one bit.

*All photographs came from tvguide.com

Fill in the Blank Friday

2011-02-25T00:29:00.000-07:00

I am currently obsessed with Million Dollar Listing. I thought I would hate it without Chad, but I am really loving it. When they show the flashbacks, I realize how annoying he really was. I love the new Josh! He's sweet and spicy.

Today I am happy because I got enough sleep last night and because I talked to both my boys and my bestest friend today. I couldn't ask for more.

The age I am is 47 and the age I feel is younger. I can't really put a number to it, but I am feeling healthy and happy.

My favorite place is at the kitchen table, playing games with the family. We have more fun there! It's really helped me to become closer to my brother in law and nephew.

Something I have been procrastinating is exercising. I have the best of intentions, but I can always find a reason not to. I know I need to get out and move, but it's so hard to get started.

The last thing purchased was nail polish. I am addicted to buying new polish every chance I get. It's cheaper than a pair of jeans, and it makes me feel feminine.

The thing I love most about my home is my bedroom. Since I am staying with my sister's family, my bedroom is my own. I love hiding in here and dreaming about my kids and what the future will bring me.

If you'd like to fill in your own blanks, visit Lauren at the little things we do and link up!

Brain Exercise At The Farm

2011-02-24T12:32:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry about disappearing. I'm having a difficult time finding the right time to write. I have time during the day, but I find it difficult to put my thoughts together then. Night is better for me. Only lately, I've been too tired to finish a post. Also, life has been quiet, so I don't have much to share. I will try to do better.

Last weekend, Playfirst had a great President's Day Sale. All their games (but special edition, of course) were only five dollars apiece! You can't beat that. I treated myself to a couple because it's been forever since I had a new game to play.

I started playing these games after my brain surgery. They really seemed to help me exercise my brain and get it working again. I've been hooked ever since. I enjoy all the different genre's they offer. My favorites are the Diner Dash games. But I also enjoy hidden object games, adventure games, puzzles games, strategy games...well, you get the idea.

This time I bought Shop It Up! and Farmscapes. I had never heard of either one, and I admit I chose them based only on the sample graphics. As it turns out, I was delighted with both of them!

Shop It Up! deals with opening and managing stores in a new mall. The player is responsible for the decor as well as inventory of each store. There are hiring requirements, as well as sales targets. It starts out slow, then builds to operating up to six stores at a time. I really enjoyed playing it. The only downside is a glitch in the program that causes the game to not be saved when it's closed, so I had to keep it open on my computer until I finished all seventy five levels. I hope they find a fix for that.

As much as I enjoyed Shop It Up!, I liked Farmscapes better. Not only was the storyline sweet, but the graphics were charming. It's the story of Tom, who on his last day of school plans to spend the entire summer in his room on his computer playing his favorite game. His parents think otherwise. They think he's spending too much time on the computer and should be out in the fresh air. So they load him up and take him to Grandpa Joe's farm where he helps grow and sell vegetables to earn money for fixing up the farm.

As enjoyable as it was to play, the best part of Farmscapes is the sweet relationship between Tom and Joe. They are interactive, speaking to the player as if he were on the farm with them. If you click on either of them or even the animals on the farm, they all respond. It was truly delightful to watch.

Now that my brain is good and exercised, I should probably get up and get something done. I have laundry to do as well as a bathroom to clean. It's not as fun as running a mall or working on the farm, but exercising the body is as important as exercising the brain, I suppose.

Once Upon A Time...

2011-02-22T01:02:00.000-07:00

Did you get an invitation to the Royal Wedding? I've been camped out by the mailbox waiting for mine to arrive, but it seems I wasn't on the Royal list. I didn't really expect to be, and, honestly even if I had been sent an invite, I couldn't afford to travel to London and I doubt I could have acquired a passport by then either. But it's fun to dream.

I'm quite excited about the wedding. I remember watching Charles and Diana's wedding back in 1981. I stayed up all night watching the coverage. I was fresh out of high school and filled with happily ever after dreams for myself, which made seeing their wedding even more magical. I was in love with Diana's puffy ivory dress with the twenty five foot train. It was spectacular!

Diana and I both gave birth to two boys, and my mother in law didn't care for me anymore than Diana's did for her. I wasn't as beautiful as her, but I was just as shy. Unfortunately, her marriage ended. I can't help but wonder if my school girl expectations of their marriage spilled over into mine, causing a similar ending to my own fairy tale.

I think it's tragic for William to not have his mother with him on his wedding day. I can hardly wait for my boys to marry! I bother them about it almost every time I talk to them...perhaps that's the reason they don't call as often as they used to.. But that aside, I have been thinking a lot about Diana since Prince William announced his engagement. The mother in me aches for her to not be there to witness her beloved son's wedding. I imagine a part of his heart will feel grief on his joyous day.

I am hoping William's wedding will be televised as his parent's was. I am planning to stay up all night, watching every shred of coverage I can find. I want to be in attendance, even if only through the tube. I am excited to see how it is both similar as well as different from Diana's wedding. I can't wait to see the streets lined with people hoping for a glimpse of the Royal's. I am excited to see Kate's choice of wedding gown and how they 'modernize' the event. I want to hear the music and the vows. I want to see the Queen, Charles and Camilla, and especially Harry. I want to hear the back stories. I want to soak it all in.

Even after all I've been through in the past two years, I still believe in fairy tales. I'm still hoping for my own happily ever after... with a prince of my own.

Worried Sick

2011-02-17T00:17:00.002-07:00

I hate energy drinks. I have never personally drank one so it's not the flavor I'm speaking of. It just bugs me how addicting they seem to be and the youth of our country are drinking too many of them. In the past few weeks, I've heard several reports of serious health issues in teens which have been linked to over consumption of the highly caffeinated beverages they are drinking. It scares me to death.

While PJ was on deployment this past year, he emailed me in a panic one night because his heart was acting funny and really hurting him. I was still living with my brother at the time, so I asked his wife, Michele, who is a nurse what could be causing it. She immediately asked if he was drinking a lot of caffeine. I emailed him back, and sure enough he had been living on these energy drinks. As soon as he stopped drinking them, his heart started acting normally again.

This scares me to death! Mainly because my boy has not learned his lesson and continues to consume these drinks even though he still occasionally feels the heart pains. He is addicted to the caffeine and it's not unreasonable to assume if he doesn't gain control over his addiction, it could lead to serious medical problems and even death.

I am angry at the companies who produce these products. It seems the containers are getting bigger, and though they are labeled as several servings, they know as well as I do, our children are drinking them as one. The ingredients offer no nutritional benefit and are over time, if consumed in large quanities, are damaging. It is also clear the market is aimed directly at our youth.

I realize just as the fast food industry cannot be completely blamed for our obesity problem, neither can the beverage companies be soley blamed for the unnecessary health risks our youth are facing due to consumption. The individual as well as parents are also responsible. However, I do feel they carry much of the blame as they knowingly produce and package their product in such a way that it not only entices our kids to purchase, but they then become addicted which encourages further purchase. The companies make money while holding no responsibility for the health risks they pose.

According to an article by The Dartmouth, a study published by researchers at John Hopkins University, voiced concerns "that unregulated consumption of energy drinks will increase the prevalence of caffeine-related disorders. These complications include caffeine intoxication, dependence and withdrawal. Caffeine intoxication, which results from excess consumption of caffeine, can cause anxiety, increased heart rate, vomiting and death."

I am guilty of frequently purchasing these drinks for my boys when they were still teenagers living at home. I wasn't aware, due to my own ignorance, of the health risks I was imposing on my boys. I simply wanted to make them happy. I share in my son's 'additction' to the caffeine his having such a hard time leaving behind. He is no longer a teen and has to be completely responsible for his own choice to ignore the health risks to drink them.

I worry sick he is permanently damaging his heart, and I was a party to it. Please, if you have teens consuming these drinks, educate yourself on the risks as well as monitor their consumption. It's just not worth having our kids risk their health. They should have their whole lives ahead of them without worry of health risk...especially because of a drink.

My Really Good Very Happy Valentines Day

2011-02-15T00:17:00.001-07:00

Today was the best Valentine's Day I've had in years! I was lucky enough to spend the whole day with my amazing sister, Becky. It was just the two of us, and it's just what I needed.

The day started with a trip into Salt Lake for a doctor's appointment. I had my annual visit with my endocrinologist. It's usually a fun visit and I look forward to it every year. Today, however, it was strange. There was definitely something wrong with him. I have worried about it all day. I hope he's okay, and was all just due to a bad day.

Before I left the medical building, I had to stop by the lab to have some blood drawn. Thankfully, I had assumed he would order blood work, so I went in fasting. It was hard to do as Becky and I stopped at my favorite donut shoppe in the world on the way in and I had two yummy donuts waiting for me.

As the technician poked my arm with the needle, she commented on the lovely day and asked if I had plans for the afternoon. I mentioned I had a donut in the car I was planning to devour as soon as she was finished. She thought that was the funniest thing she'd ever heard. It made me smile.

When we left there we went to the mall. (I am not ashamed to say I ate both donuts on the way ) We were searching for a gift for Trey to give his girlfriend. We started at See's candy store where we were delighted with a complimentary chocolate on the way out. Then we went to Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory where we found the perfect box of chocolates for Trey to give. We then walked over to the Godiva store where we treated ourselves to huge chocolate dipped strawberries. Becky chose milk chocolate for hers, and I chose dark. They also gave us a complimentary chocolate when we paid for the strawberries. It was lovely!

During the day I was lucky enough to receive sweet text messages from my boys. I wish I could just squeeze them both! I just love those little loves of mine!

Finally, we headed home. We made it back just before Trey came home from buying flowers and a balloon for his girlfriend. We were delighted as we watched him practice how he would stand at the door holding all his gifts. He was so cute.

He left for his date, then Becky grilled the most delicious steaks for dinner. Afterward, we spent the evening playing card games and snacking on Mike-n-Ike's.

I admit I probably ate too much sugar, and I'm hoping my doctor doesn't read this. We had a bit of a discussion about how bad the sweet stuff is for me, but I don't care. It was a lovely day... almost perfect, actually. The only thing missing? A second chocolate dipped strawberry.

I can hardly wait for next year.

Valentines Day

2011-02-14T00:04:00.011-07:00

I always loved Valentines Day. As a child, I remember writing my name on the back of dozens of valentines for my school classmates while carefully, choosing the best ones for my favorite friends. When my children were home, I always had a valentine for them in the morning so they'd know how loved they were. Then, in the afternoon, I'd watch while they camped out by the front door trying to catch their friends when they heard the doorbell ring. It was such fun watching them race to find who left the goodies by the door and ran. I miss those days.

It's a lonely day for those of us without someone special. Maybe it would be easier if I didn't enjoy it so much for so many years. I hear all the time of those who think it's a commercial day and they don't celebrate. Of course, it has become commercial. Every holiday has. But I truly believe in the little things being most important and today is the perfect day proving it. It just takes a small token to bring a smile to the face of those we love.

I truly hope you're day will be filled with simple joys. But if you're like me, and missing those you love, or feeling lonely, maybe we can enjoy the day too just by sharing a smile or making a phone call to someone who could use a friend. Pass on the love. That's what today is for, after all.

The Loneliest Day of the Year

by Gerard Lebel

Here we are again…
approaching the doorstep
of another Happy Valentine’s Day.

A day for which young
school children prepare for by
cutting, pasting,
drawing and folding
colored paper into cards
to give to their loving parents
and special fellow classmates.

A time for handing out and nibbling
on little pastel heart candies
with loving messages for our
devoted friends such as...
‘You’re the Tops‘,
‘My Secret Love’ or
‘Be Mine‘.

A day for lovers
to celebrate the affection
they have together discovered
by sending long-stemmed
red roses and Godiva chocolates.
It’s also a day of first kisses,
extraordinary smiles
and even marriage proposals.

But for some, it’s a day
to be reminded of all that
is now vacant from their lives.
So many are long past their school days
of hand-made cards and crushes.

For others, there will be no candy hearts…
no red roses or dark chocolates delivered…
no kisses or special smiles given…
and certainly no marriage proposals.

For millions of seniors…
orphaned children…
and the homeless…
it’s just another cold, empty
and lonely day…

And any day that you’re unloved is
The loneliest day of the year.

All I Wanted Was A Bag Of Fries...

2011-02-10T00:01:00.001-07:00

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I have something I've been wanting to get off my chest. Do you remember when I drove to Nevada to see PJ a couple of weekends ago? Well I mentioned it was a bittersweet time, but it had some very difficult moments for me. As soon as PJ left to go into Vegas to see his dad and attend the concert, I knew I wanted to head for home. I decided it was too late to start the long trip because I don't see well enough to drive after dark.

I stayed the night with my brother's family, then first thing in the morning, I loaded up the dog and we headed home. I drove straight through, only stopping to fill the car. It was a long trip and I had a lot of time to think. By the time I got home I was an emotional wreck. I had spent the whole time thinking about every sad or hard moment that had ever happened to me in my very long life. I was barely holding it together, I tell you.

(I'm not sure why I dwell on the sad instead of the good all the time. I'm going to blame it on the country music I listen to. Yeah. That's it).

I put the dog and my things in the house, then because I was alone for the remainder of the weekend, I headed to the grocery store. I wanted to find easy to prepare foods for one. However, I all I ended up buying was a package of chocolate zingers, a king size bag of peanut butter m&ms, and a king size package of mounds. When I got to the car I realized all I had was the junkiest of junk food and I was hungry. I spotted a nearby McDonald and decided to drive through for some real food.

I ordered a cheeseburger, small fry and a hot fudge sundae. Are you seeing a pattern?? I'm not normally plagued with PMS in my post-hysterectomy years, but I think that night was the exception.

Anyway, I paid my three dollars and some change and drove up the street to home. By the time I got into the house with my junk food, I was ready to drown all my sorrows! I decided to start with the french fries. But when I opened the McDonald's bag, the stinkin' dang french fries were not there!!! I was livid!!

I may or may not have said some colorful words my mama would have slapped me for. But dang it! I was hungry and I was sad and I was lonely. I needed those fries in the worst way! I pouted while downing the cheeseburger and then the sundae, all the while contemplating giving Micky D's a jing-a-ling to tell them off. But anyone who knows me, knows I'm terrified of telephones so I wouldn't call them, and there was no way I was going to drive back down to the restaurant. So I ate the zingers instead.

But here we are almost three weeks later, and I AM STILL MAD! I am sick and tired of paying good money for good food then not receive it. I believe nine times out of ten, when I drive through, I do not get at least one item I paid for. No wonder these fast food companies can build hundreds of locations all over the world. I believe they're all doing it with free money.

To be fair, McDonald's is not the only establishment where this has happened.

Fast food restaurant's, I am sick to death of this practice. I know you're trying to get ordered food out the window as quickly as possible. But I am asking you to please, just slow down a bit. Triple check the orders that leave and please do not assume because your customers are not returning to complain about missing items that it isn't happening. You are in essence, stealing money and that is not right no matter how you try to justify it.

All I wanted was a bag of fries for crying out loud. Is that so much to ask?

Back To Being Me

2011-02-09T00:08:00.001-07:00

Everyone in the house has been ill for the past week. We've had fevers flare and break, then they'd do it all over again. We were dizzy and nauseous. We had sore throats and painful coughs. It was simply awful.

When I opened my eyes this morning I immediately knew I felt better. I started making plans to clean my bedroom, change the sheets, clean the bathroom, do my laundry and vacuum the house. I was so happy to feel normal again.

Isn't it the first thing you want to do when you recover from being sick? The house is always a wreck after that. There are dishes piled up, the bathrooms are yucky and piles seem to form on every flat surface. Everyone else was gone to work or school so I felt like it was my responsibility to do as much as I could to get things back into order.

I got out of bed and danced my way down the hall to the bathroom. By the time I arrived, I realized my list was maybe a bit too long. As much as I wanted to do all the cleaning and laundry, it just wasn't going to happen. I figured I was feeling good then, but as the day went on I would start to feel tired and maybe a bit weak.

But guess what? That didn't happen. I was able to accomplish my entire list! It feels so good tonight. There is still more cleaning to do but I'm proud of what I did today. But more than anything, I am happy to be back to being me!

What A Difference

2011-02-01T00:06:00.002-07:00

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What a difference a day makes! The clouds have parted (not literally...it's snowing outside!) and the sun is shining.. (again, not literally). My bad attitude from the weekend is gone and I'm feeling happy again.

All it took was sleeping in, a heart to heart with my sister, a couple of delicious cookies and a few sweet words from a very dear friend. Okay, it didn't really take all of that, but all of it did help to make a really good day.

Unfortunately I think I'm starting to get sick. My throat is scratchy, my ears are itchy and my eyes are watery. Becky has a sore throat and swollen glands, and Trey has a fever tonight, so it seems some terrible germ has hit the house. Therefore, I am going to bed super early and pray I can sleep it away.

I Was So Happy...Then I Was So Sad

2011-01-31T00:03:00.001-07:00

I was able to spend a short but meaningful seventeen hours with my boy this past weekend. I love being the mom of this amazing child.

We were finally able to exchange Christmas gifts. And, I was able to get to know his friend, P, a little bit better. I really like him and I'm thankful my boy has a good friend like him.

Saying goodbye was hard. I didn't want him to leave so soon. I'm sick of being without my kids. I'm tired of being alone. I put on a happy face (most of the time) but I'm not happy. At all. I want to be with my family.

I don't think there is any way to accept losing my home and my family. Especially after so many years. They were my whole world and it seems in an instant it was gone. I realize my boys would have left home anyway. But it wouldn't have been like this. They would have come back. Now there is no where to come back to. They visit me at relatives homes. It's appreciated, but not the same. We hurt whether we are together or apart, and I don't know how to fix it.

Seeing them is so bittersweet. My heart fills with joy when I am with them, but when they leave again, depression moves in. I wonder how this will end. I don't think a happy ending is in the cards for me.

Please don't be sick of these unhappy posts. They may not be fun to read, but it's real life. It takes a very long time to heal sometimes. I'm doing my best. Honest.

Doing The Happy Dance!

2011-01-26T00:02:00.001-07:00

Tomorrow I'm leaving town. I'm headed to Nevada to see this boy.

PJ is meeting his dad in Vegas for a concert later this week. It's been almost a year since he's had leave, and I'm dying to hug him, so we're going to meet a day early, at my brother's house. That way I can see him too. I'm doing the happy dance!

I'm also looking forward to visiting my brother and his family. I've really missed them since I moved to Utah. It will be nice to see everyone.

I will be gone a few days, so I won't be back here until Monday. Hopefully.

I hope you have a good weekend.

Copycat Recipe: Noodles & Co. Wisconsin Mac & Cheese

2011-01-25T00:08:00.016-07:00

Every other Monday, I go into Salt Lake with Becky and Trey because they have an appointment with the orthodontist to have their braces adjusted.

After the orthodontist appointment we hurry to have lunch before their teeth start hurting. Trey's favorite place to go is Noodles & Company. The first time he suggested going there, I turned up my nose. I couldn't imagine a restaurant where only noodles are served. But having eaten there plenty of times now, it has become one of my favorite restaurants.

I've tried several of their dishes but I've narrowed it down to two favorites, and I always seem to choose one or the other. The first is Pad Thai. I love the crunchy bean sprouts, vegetables and peanuts. Sometimes I add shrimp to kick it up a bit.

But my very favorite dish to order is Wisconsin Mac & Cheese. It's so good! It's different from any mac and cheese I've ever had. There is a light, but creamy cheese sauce in the bottom of the bowl, macaroni on top, and finally it's topped off with shredded cheddar cheese. It's truly divine.

I found a copycat recipe online, so Becky and I gave it a try for dinner last night. Of course, it wasn't exactly like we get a noodles, but it was close. Greg deemed it the best macaroni and cheese he'd ever eaten. I agree it was really good.

Image from Noodles & Co website

Noodles & Co. Macaroni and Cheese (copycat)

1 lb. macaroni
1/4 cup butter
1/4 cup flour
3 cups milk
1/2 tsp salt
3 cups shredded monterey jack cheese
shredded cheddar cheese

Cook macaroni according to directions on package. Set aside.
In saucepan, melt butter over medium heat. Stir in flour until well combined. Slowly stir in milk, and whisk until thickened. Add salt and remove from heat. Add monterey jack cheese and stir until melted.

My notes:
This makes a lot of sauce. Also, the original recipe calls for half and half instead of milk. But according to the comments where I found this recipe, we chose to use whole milk instead of half and half because it was said the mixture becomes too thick. After making the recipe once, Becky and I have decided 2% milk would work even better. The sauce is not supposed to be thick.

To serve, as they do at Noodles & Co, spoon desired amount of sauce in bowl, followed by pasta on top of that. Then top with shredded cheddar cheese. The sauce should not overwhelm the pasta, so use caution to not add too much sauce.

Howdy Darlin'. How Far Along Are Ya'?

2011-01-21T01:23:00.002-07:00

In April of 1989, the small town where I lived was alive with excitement. Soviet gymnasts were coming to the local college to participate in an exhibition with the USA's top gymnasts. The cold war had not yet ended so we were thrilled and a bit apprehensive to have the Soviets in town. Or maybe it was just me who was apprehensive. I truly was (and still am) scared of everything.

Tim Daggett

I worked at the local 7-11 at the time, and I was also pregnant with my first baby. But that didn't stop me from secretly gawking at all the well built male gymnasts who came into the store. I even had the thrill of having Tim Daggatt, 1986 Olympic gold medalist, wink at me. At first I was silly with excitement, thenI was horrified when I realized my sister in law, who was not scared of anything, told him I had a crush on him. It was embarrassing beyond belief!

Lee Greenwood

During that eventful week, Lee Greenwood came to town. He was to perform a concert for the gymnasts and anyone else who purchased a ticket. Of course, Daddy-O and I didn't have extra money for concerts, so I, along with my sister Becky and our neighbor Tracey, decided to go to the airport to be part of the crowd who welcomed Mr Greenwood when he flew in. We figured that would make up for not being able to go to the concert.

We made it just minutes before the plane was scheduled to arrive. There wasn't much of a crowd...only twenty people or so. We stood by the fence and watched the plane land. We were surprised when Mr Greenwood came over to talk to us. He walked right up to me and had a short conversation.

Him: Howdy darlin'! How far along are ya?

Me: I'm due next month

Him: Well don't be havin' that baby tonight!

Me: I won't.

And that ladies and gentlemen is one of my lame brushes with greatness. Happily, my mother in law, who worked for the college, got a couple tickets last minute so I was able to go to the concert after all. I'm happy to report, true to my word, I did not have my baby that night.

Fast forward to a couple of weekends ago. Gus called and before I could say hello, he said "Mom. Do you know who Lee Greenwood is?" I immediately had a small freak out (because that's how I am). I asked him why and he said Mr Greenwood was on base signing autographs and visiting with the Marines. He asked Gus what his name was and when Gus told him, he said he knew someone with that same last name years ago. We have kind of an unusual last name so he wondered if it could have been any of our relatives he knew.

I would like to think it was me Lee Greenwood remembered. But I didn't tell him my name, so it couldn't be. But isn't it weird... Not weird weird, but like exciting weird (name that movie!)... that both of us, Gus and I, would have an experience with the same country singer? Twenty years apart? It has to mean something. Right?

While I ponder the meaning of all of this, I am including a video of Lee Greenwood singing God Bless The USA for your enjoyment. Even after all these years, it still gives me chills.

I Am The Worst

2011-01-20T00:17:00.000-07:00

I realize I am the world's worst blogger. It's just that I find myself in a strange place and I cannot find the words to share it. I feel like I'm in a holding cell waiting for my life to start again. Yet, I'm not unhappy and I'm not bored. I am just living a quiet, very simple existence, and while it's working for me, it's not giving me much to talk about.

I really hope you'll stick around. I'm probably just going through a writer's block, or I'm tired or something. Even though I'm not very good at it, I love blogging. I'm just stuck. Thankfully, tomorrow is Fill In The Blank Friday, so it will be a no brainer to write then.

So please, forget about all the nonsense I've put up here today and come back tomorrow for a regular post. I really do love and appreciate you for coming here at all.

The Golden Globes Red Carpet - My Picks

2011-01-17T00:11:00.011-07:00

I adore Hollywood award shows. I love the bad jokes, the dresses, the tuxedos, the stiff presenters and the winners too, of course! I love it all. But truthfully, if I miss the actual show, I don't feel so bad. I can always read the winners list online. I can catch video clips of their acceptance speeches as well. But I truly hate missing the Red Carpet!

I love seeing everyone arrive. The people in the bleachers scream, and the stars smile. They visit with one another and they laugh. It's a small glimpse into who these famous people really are. I like to imagine what it feels like to be dressed so perfectly...or to be on the arm of gorgeous man who is adored by so many. (Honestly, to be on the arm of any man sounds good right now).

Sadly, I missed the Red Carpet and the Golden Globe broadcast. Thanks to the internet, I was still able to see my favorite stars show their fashion choices. I don't think the Fashion Police on E! will be calling for my opinions, but I'm sharing them anyway. Like it or not.

Favorite Dresses:

Julianne Hough... I think it's simple and beautiful.

Maria Menounos... I love the ruffles and the pale pink hue. It's gorgeous!


I'm guessing I'm alone in this pick, but my very favorite of the night is Krya Sedgwick. Not many could wear this color, and she does it beautifully!

My Least Favorites

Helen Boham Carter...I get wanting to show your individuality, but this is a hot mess.

Halle Berry. I really don't like this dress. At all.

January Jones...I don't know who she is, but I know she has horrible taste.

Favorite Men

Zac Efron...Seriously. He looks good. (please forgive the inappropriate comment I'm about to make) I wonder if he's interested in dating older, fat women now that he's broken up with Vanessa??

Colin Firth. Who doesn't have a crush on Mr Darcy?? He looks great and his wife is not only very lucky, but gorgeous as well.

Kevin McHale. No crush on Kevin, but I love his polka dot coat and his confidence wearing it!

Favorite Couples

Colin Firth and wife, Livia Giuggioli. I know it's a tad redundant after my gushing earlier. But honestly. I love ~~him~~ them.

Nichole Kidman and Keith Urban. They seem to bring out the best in each other.


Kyra Sedgwick and Kevin Bacon. I admire their marriage. I bet it lasts forever.

Finally...

The dress I would most want to wear

Olivia Wilde

I've always dreamed of, and never had the chance to, wear a ball gown. I think the graduation of gold sparkles to black is not only feminine but grown up. I would feel special wearing it, and that's something I've never felt before. (Waah. BooHoo for me.)

The show has started and we should know soon who was lucky enough to take home a Globe. I really hope The King's Speech wins Best Picture. I haven't seen it, but I hear the lead is ~~attractive~~ brilliant.

Fill In The Blank Friday. A Little Late.

2011-01-14T21:47:00.000-07:00

I hate that I missed Fill In The Blank Friday. I had someone contact me to find out why I didn't participate. That made my day! Thanks for missing me blog friend!

This past week was a rough, feel sorry for me week. Because I'm trying very hard to be TRUE (my word of the year) I decided to go with it. But I also chose not to say more about it on the blog. I want to be true to me, but I don't want to drive all of you crazy with my whining. Right?

It's a quiet night in the house, so I thought it would be fun for me, and whoever else cares, if I fill in the blank a little late. I won't link up because it's probably too late, but just in case you want to read what others wrote, click here to visit the little things we do.

I feel happy when I am grocery shopping. I know I've mentioned it a hundred times before but going to the grocery store makes me so happy! I love preparing and eating food, but it's more than that. I feel so grateful to live at a time when food is so readily available and abundant. Hunger should not exist. There is really no excuse for it.

I get silly when I'm with my sisters. For some reason everything seems happier and more funny when I am with them!

Something that makes me sad is when my boys hurt...whatever the reason. When my children hurt, it hurts me a hundred times more than it does them.

Something that makes me annoyed is rude people. Just today I had an experience that still has my feathers ruffled. I drove to Walmart, found the perfect parking place, and just as I was turning to pull in, some stupid little snot decided she needed an entire parking place to unload her cart. She saw me and didn't care! To top her rudeness off, she left her cart in the space instead of taking it to the return. I was livid!

A time I've been truly surprised was when my gynecologist told me I had a brain tumor and it was causing the female problems I was seeing him for. Wait. What??

I'm so thankful for my boys and the 'I love you...goodnight' texts they send almost every night.

I feel loved when I am heard. It means so much when a family member or close friend will take the time to truly listen to me. I love nothing more than a good conversation with someone I care about.

Wearing My Blue Colored Glasses

2011-01-12T12:40:00.004-07:00

I'm having a blue day. Days like these aren't happening as often as they used to, but when they do come it's tough. I revert back to the devastated person I was when I left my home. I just want to curl up and hide, never having to face life again. Even the simplest tasks feel overwhelming. It becomes hard to imagine I have a place in this world.

I can't predict when days like this will happen. Sometimes a television commercial will spark a painful memory. Other times, I wake up sad, probably due to an unremembered dream. Sometimes, the feelings I try to keep pushed down inside, bubble up and spill out.

Even on the bad days, I can see I have grown. I have become stronger, and more independent. I am facing my fears and learning to overcome them. But the truth is, I am only doing so because I have to. The real me just wants to be like everyone else who is mindlessly living their lives, simply being themselves.

Because I am divorced I am forced to do things I don't want to do. I don't want to learn to support myself. I don't want to be without someone to love me and share my life with. I don't understand why I am not worthy of having what others so easily have.

I don't think there are answers to my feelings. I have to just accept what life has given me. I am grateful it didn't hand me something worse because I know I couldn't overcome it. I'm having a hard enough time as it is.

A Good Kind Of Squish

2011-01-11T00:07:00.002-07:00

Today was a big day... I had my first mammogram. My aunt, my mom's sister, is currently fighting breast cancer. It's been an ugly fight and we aren't sure if she will win. But sadly, that's not the reason I had one done today. Stupidly, I have refused to acknowledge the link between her cancer and my chance for cancer. I think I've had too many things to worry about and couldn't add one more to the list, so I've pretended it doesn't affect me.

The reason I had a mammogram today is so I can be prescribed estrogen. I have taken estrogen since just after my brain surgery in 1996. Until now, not a single doctor has questioned whether I needed screening before writing out the prescription for me. So, I was surprised when I saw my new doctor and she refused until I had the test. I am grateful someone is watching out for me. Maybe that's the difference between going to a woman doctor (my first) and men doctors.

I wasn't nervous a bit, and really the whole experience was a breeze. I went to the Huntsman Cancer Center in Salt Lake City. They have it down to a science. I was in and out in twenty five minutes. I won't say it didn't hurt, because it did. But it was only for a moment as they took each picture. The worst part of my experience? The technician who helped me. She was super sweet and very informative, but her breath was horrible!

I'm not worried about the results. I know they will be fine. But I'm really happy I was forced to get a baseline done today. The truth is, I do have a family history of breast cancer, even if there has only been one family member who's had it. Watching what she has gone through scares me and I'll do anything I can to avoid it.

Fill In The Blank Friday

2011-01-07T01:22:00.001-07:00

Yep. It's time to fill in the blank again. I hope after you read my answers, you'll hurry over to visit Lauren and join in the fun!

Winter is my favorite time of year. I love the early darkness...the cold air...Christmas and New Years...the stillness. I love bundling up and wearing mittens...seeing my breath...the crunch of old snow and ice. I love icicles hanging from houses and trees without leaves...no flies in the house...blankets piled on my bed. It all makes me happy!

Summer is not my favorite season. I grow tired of the sun shining constantly...sweating constantly...and never feeling cool enough. But, I do love lemonade and shaved ice...red raspberry for me please! I love cookouts and picnics on the mountain. Friends stopping by to visit and staying up late.

If it were summer instead of winter right now I'd clean out my car. It's disgustingly filthy from the inside out and it's making me crazy!

My favorite thing to do in winter is wear comfy sweats...warm socks and wrap up in a blanket. I love to open the curtains and watch it snow... while enjoying a good movie with someone I love...ignoring the phone and just being together.

My favorite thing to do in summer is grab a bucket of Kentucky Fried Chicken and head for the mountains for a picnic...and to cool off...with the ones I love.

The ideal outfit for a summer day is shorts and a Tshirt. I'm simple.

The ideal outfit for a frigid winter day is a cute sweater layered over cute shirts...with a pair of jeans and warm, but stylish boots.

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!

Rude People Make Me Mad

2011-01-06T00:05:00.003-07:00

I went to the grocery store with my sister the other day. She was paying for her purchases and I stepped away to look at something. The next thing I know I hear someone screaming "Look out!". I turn my head and see and older woman on one of these:

racing toward me. It only took a moment to realize she was going to run me over! Thankfully, I jumped out of the way just in time, but as you can imagine I was furious! I considered chasing her down and telling her what I thought, but decided to just let it go. Even thinking about it now makes me so angry! Why couldn't she just stop or slow the stupid thing down? If you can't drive them, you shouldn't be using them. Honestly!

Another day, just before Christmas, I walked into Walmart with my sister. She needed to make a return so we were standing with in line to get the little sticker the greeters put on the returns. An older woman on of those awful scooters pulls up behind us and screams very loudly "Get out of the way!!!" There was absolutely no need for that and I was ready to let her have it, but Becky pulled me away.

Why do they think they deserve to run me down and scream at me? I was minding my own business.These aren't the only experiences I've had with people on scooters. A couple of years ago, Daddy-O and I were looking at toothbrushes in our local Walmart. We were the only two people in the aisle until a man pulled up on his scooter. He told us to move, then he proceeded to push his way in to where we were standing. I was appalled. To make matters worse, he curtly asked us to reach the product he wanted because he couldn't reach it sitting down. Really?? You couldn't wait your turn? You couldn't ask nicely? Because you're disabled or whatever, you have to go first?

I am not complaining about scooters. I understand their purpose and I have great respect for those who struggle physically but still get out to do their shopping. I am thrilled when I can help someone reach for something, or hand them something they cannot get to. I am happy to move out of the way as I understand the scooters are cumbersome and difficult to handle in small aisles. However, I do not care what your disability is, you still need to be polite and patient. Just like everyone else.

My Word of the Year

2011-01-05T00:06:00.008-07:00

In the past few days I've read several blog posts by others concerning their words of the year. I'm always intrigued by the words that are chosen as well as the reasons. I love reading throughout the year, when the writer has made a decision, or enriched her life by being focused on her word. I've never before participated, but this year I am.

A little background about me. I am a strong person who when alone feels confident about myself. But if someone else, whether I respect that person or not, questions my ideas or choices, I tend to change my ways to match what they suggest. I quickly become insecure and believe I am wrong.

This has caused many problems for me, and greatly contributed to the failing of my marriage. I became such a wreck inside that I found it hard to function. I was positive every tiny thing I did from making the bed to fixing dinner was wrong. Daddy-O tried his hardest to support me and convince me I was doing great, but the negativity of others overwhelmed me and I could not see any good.

As much as I've wanted to believe it's not like that any longer now that I am alone, it's not true. I have had a few instances recently that have made me aware the pattern still exists. I recognize I would be unable to have a future marriage succeed if I do not overcome this tendency.

Therefore the word I have chosen to focus on is True. Not only do I want to have honest and true relationships with others, I very much desire the same in a relationship with myself. I want to be true to my intuitions and my feelings. I will not sway to please others because I automatically assume my ideas are wrong...or not as good as theirs. I will stand firm and be proud of what I do. More importantly, I will be proud of who I am.

From time to time I will share how I'm doing. I hope you will keep me accountable and not let me get away with becoming lazy and not becoming my word.

If you have also chosen a word to focus on this year, please leave a comment or a link to your post explaining it. I would love to read your inspiration!

I Love It!

2011-01-04T00:08:00.004-07:00

This past weekend, we took a chance and watched a movie none of us had heard of before. We weren't expecting much, but we were happily surprised! This movie is adorable. It is sweet, funny and super warm. My mouth hurt from the smile I had during the entire film.

It's called Flipped and it's a wonderful family film. Gather the kids, pop some popcorn and enjoy a fun filled family night together. If you don't have children, please watch it anyway. This is a terrific movie for everyone. I honestly think it's one of my favorite three movies ever! It's that good.

You don't have to take my word for it...just watch the trailer.

If you've seen it already, I'd love to hear what you thought. Please leave a comment. Thanks!

Hope For A Better Year

2011-01-03T00:09:00.001-07:00

I hope with all my might, 2011 will finally bring much needed relief for me and my guys. We've had two very painful years in a row and we could sure use a break. But if the first two days of the year are any indicition, the horrors may not be over. This past week has been filled with terrible moments, leaving us with little hope for a fresh start with the new year.

I've always believed there is a reason for everything. So I'm holding onto the unknown and praying it brings peace and happiness to us. I think we deserve it. I'm proud of the way we have handled ourselves through all we've endured but it's time for some fun!

So please 2011, bring us good times and good health. Bless us with great memories and proud moments. We need laughter and prosperity. For every good moment you bring, we promise to break it in half and share. Because I'm pretty sure, we're not the only ones who need a change.

Welcome 2011. We're putting our faith in you.

What I Loved Most

2010-12-27T15:40:00.002-07:00

What I loved most about Christmas this year...

I just wish this jolly boy could have been here too...

because then it would have been a perfect Christmas Day.

Merry Christmas To All

2010-12-22T12:47:00.000-07:00

freedigitalphotos.net

It's probably obvious by my lack of posting in recent days, I am a bit unorganized. Honestly, I'm not even doing that much, but when I get overwhelmed, I get tired. When I'm tired, I'm worthless. So I was thinking maybe it would be best for me...and you...if I just say Merry Christmas now, and take a little break. Because that seems to be what I'm doing anyway. I hope you understand.

I truly hope you each have a magical Christmas that is filled with laughter, good food and people you love.

Santa Is Wrapping Gifts

2010-12-20T11:18:00.001-07:00

(picture from freedigitalphotos.com)

I've been banned to the bedroom while Santa (a.k.a Becky) wraps mountains of gifts. I am enjoying the solitude and hope it lasts just a bit longer. I am very much a loner, and in this house, I don't get the opportunity for hiding very often. That's a good thing, really.

We are running into the big city this afternoon for those few things we forgot. It's snowing out, so that combined with wrapping gifts and crowded stores, it really feels like Christmas is only a few days away.

I am so excited for Gus to arrive Christmas Eve, I can hardly stand it! He drove across the country this past weekend, nearly giving me a heart attack because he refused to check in. How was I supposed to know he wasn't dead on the side of a road somewhere in New Mexico? After more than twelve hours he sent a text telling me to chill and let him drive. Crazy kid. I'm certain he stopped for gas at least once during those hours, would it have hurt him to let me know how he was? Thankfully, he arrived safely in Utah yesterday and is in our old hometown, spending time with friends.

Greg made pecan logs last night. OMGosh! That man can make the candy! He started with penuche, and dipped it in caramel and then rolled it in chopped pecans. Amazing. I dreamed about it all night. I wanted to sneak a slice this morning, but Becky promptly locked me in here, so I haven't been able to get to it. I'm dying.

I should be showered and dressed so I'm ready when Santa...er, Becky is ready to leave, but I've spent most of the morning on the phone with my best friend instead. Therefore, I need to hit Publish Post and get moving. I hope you all have a festive and warm last Monday before Christmas!

Fill In The Blank Friday

2010-12-16T23:24:00.001-07:00

I'm hoping after you read my answers, you'll want to join in the fun yourself. Just pop over to the little things we do and link up!

Giving is one of the greatest joys in life. When you choose the right gift for the right person, it's the best feeling ever!

Receiving is awkward. It's nice to be thought of, and to receive a gift, but I always feel a bit uncomfortable.

The best gift I ever received is an eternity band. Daddy-O gave it to me for Christmas after we'd been married ten years. He got down on his knee and proposed all over again. I was completely surprised and thrilled!!

The best gift I ever gave is was a trip to Disney World to my boys. Actually, Daddy-O and I surprised the boys on Easter. They never dreamed they would get to go, so they were more than excited. It was so fun!

Something intangible I wish I could receive is a promise my boys will always be safe, happy and healthy.

Something intangible I wish I could give is for my sister. I wish I could give her an afternoon with our dad, who died just after she was born. It's unfair she wasn't able to know him.

The gift I always wanted as a child but never got is a karaoke machine. Okay, they didn't have those when I was a kid, but as an adult I've always wanted one. It's become a joke in my family because I ask for one every year and I'm always disappointed. Perhaps it's because I can't sing. At all. Not even a little bit. But still...

Thank God For Kids

2010-12-16T00:04:00.005-07:00

Thank God for kids, there's magic for a while

A special kind of sunshine in a smile

Do you ever stop to think or wonder why

The nearest thing to heaven is a child...

This verse comes from a special song by the Oak Ridge Boys called Thank God For Kids. It came into my mind today during a conversation I had with my sister. She mentioned, with tears in her eyes, a conversation she overhead at work recently. One of her co workers, who is divorced, was talking about her kids. She was complaining because she had to have them more often than her ex husband does. She said she wishes she could just dump them on him.

We both sat quietly as we thought about that, then Becky said, "how can we expect our world to be a productive, happy place, when so many of us are tossing our kids aside like they don't matter!"

Her comment made me sad because I think there is a lot of truth to it. I worry about the kids who aren't getting the love and nurturing they are entitled. I am not pointing any fingers, and heaven knows I made plenty of mistakes raising my own two boys. I'm just suggesting maybe we need to help each other a little more. Maybe we need to go out of our way a little bit more to reach a child who is hurting.

I used to babysit when my kids were young. One of the girls I kept was wild! She would break toys, and scream for no reason. She was hard to control and I am ashamed to tell you, I wasn't very nice to her. I tried, but she always seemed to push my buttons. I finally had to tell her mom I couldn't keep her anymore. It broke my heart, but I felt it was best.

Several years later, I ran into her. I didn't think she recognized me, but she did. She asked to be sure, and when I confirmed, she told me how much she loved coming to my house. She also said she appreciated me for being so nice to her. I gave her a hug and left.

I felt such shame...and then my heart broke. If she felt loved at my house, then it made me wonder what she was feeling at her own house. I wish I could go back and do it over again and treat her the way she deserved to be treated.

Listen, life is hard. It seems to be getting harder to be a good parent. We all have so many pressures on us, and our children do as well. I just hope somehow, the course we are on will change and kids can get back to being kids. And feeling safe. And loved.

Is that asking too much?

The Happy Feeling of Christmas

2010-12-15T00:07:00.001-07:00

I am overwhelmed and exhausted. There seems to be so much to do but I just can't seem to get it done. I know that's an overplayed tune for this time of year, but it doesn't make it any less true! It makes me smile when I hear someone say next year they're going to be prepared for Christmas early so they can enjoy the holiday. I always think the same thing too, but it never happens.

I wonder if I was able to get it all done by the end of November, what it would be like. I have a hunch it wouldn't feel like Christmas at all. Is it the lists, trips to the store and rushing to wrap gifts that create the happy feeling we call Christmas? I believe it is. Still, it would be nice to be more organized.

Yesterday, Becky and I spent ten straight hours shopping. By the time we got home, my muscles were screaming! I took a hot shower, swallowed an ibuprofen and went to bed with the heating pad. I decided when I woke up this morning, I was going to finish my shopping online. I am now waiting for five packages to be delivered. I hope the mailman won't hate me. Oh wait! Becky is my mailman. Ha! I can assure you she is not amused, but I don't care. I don't have the energy and patience she has.

I am not complaining about any of it. I truly enjoy this time of year. And in one week I'll have Gus with me and it will all have been worth it!

Fill In The Blank Friday

2010-12-10T01:22:00.000-07:00

It's been weeks since I've participated in filling in blanks. I'm so excited to be back on track this week! If you want to join in the fun, be sure to visit Lauren and hook up!

I wish everyone in the military could be home with their families for Christmas.

Yesterday I did absolutely nothing. I sat on my chair, in front of the computer for hour after hour. It was bliss.

Today I will do a little Christmas shopping and hopefully some baking too. I will also finally watch Toy Story 3 and I can't wait!

Tomorrow I will finalize my shopping list so I can finish up Monday.

Maybe if I try to be the best person I can be, then all my dreams will come true. I hope so.

Someday I want to spend Christmas in my own home, with both my boys and their families. I can only imagine the joy I would feel!

I love playing Christmas music extra loud when I'm home alone. It makes me so happy!

Please Make It Stop!

2010-12-09T00:01:00.004-07:00

I love Christmas music and have enjoyed hearing different variations of the same songs as I move from store to store in the mall. I happily hum along as I shop for gifts, listening to lyrics of snow, fireplaces, bells and other things Holiday.

I am not picky when it comes to Christmas music. I enjoy everything from Bing Crosby's Christmas Classics to Happy Holidays (A Very Special Christmas Album) by Billy Idol. Throw in a little country with Christmas to Christmas by Toby Keith and I'm still happy.

However, there is one song that I cannot stand. Santa Baby. Whenever it's played I immediately become irritable. It makes me want to lay on the floor and throw a tantrum! It doesn't matter who is singing, I hate it. I can't stand the whiny, 'trying too hard to be sexy' tone of the song. It is unbecoming and trashy.

It seems everywhere I go this season, I have to hear it playing. I can't escape it. Christmas is seventeen days away. While I'll be sad when it's over, it will be a relief to not have to hear Santa Baby for at least another three hundred days or so.

I Wish I Was Santa

2010-12-08T00:03:00.004-07:00

I didn't intend to be away for a week..I just needed a day or two...or so I thought. I'm still not one hundred percent back to myself, but I'm doing better...and I'm running out of time to prepare for Christmas, so I can't sit any longer. I need to shop...and wrap..and bake and mail packages. I hope I can get it all done.

Tonight we decorated the tree...and it turned out lovely. Becky and Greg get a fresh tree every year...it's a nice change. I had forgotten how wonderful the smell...and how beautiful the imperfections really are. It's a lovely change from the artificial tree I used to own...though I miss it. I thought it was perfect...and I loved not having to water it.

After the tree is decorated...all the house lights are turned off...leaving the tree glowing. Becky serves everyone either eggnog or sparking apple juice in special Christmas glasses. The family sits on the floor in front of the tree for a Christmas toast. Then from oldest to youngest... everyone shares what they want most for Christmas. It was lovely. Even if I am the oldest, and I had trouble getting back up from the floor.

I'm excited for Gus to be here for Christmas. He's been through so much the past couple of weeks...a spider bite turned very scary...a car accident, also scary and the other day...he thought his buddy died in his arms...he had a seizure and wasn't breathing by the time the ambulance came. Thankfully, his friend is okay. My poor boy has had to grow up so fast. I need to hug him.

I wish PJ could come home. But he'll be here in January. We'll celebrate Christmas together then. I can't wait... he's become such a good friend...as well as an amazing son. I need to hug him too.

I wish I was Santa...so I could buy them anything they ever wanted for Christmas. I know it's not the true meaning...but I want to give them everything...and see them smile...and let them know how loved they are. That's what I want most.

That Dang Pituitary

2010-12-01T00:10:00.001-07:00

Sometimes I don't feel so good. It's not because I'm ill, but because my body chooses not to work for me. I have hypopituitarism, which is a big word to say my pituitary gland doesn't work. I also have mycarditis; another big word but this one means the muscle surrounding my heart caught a virus, causing it to inflame and not let my heart work properly. I take medications for each of these conditions, but once in a while they don't seem to work.

I wake up tired, even if I've had a good night's sleep. I struggle to get showered, and afterward, I need a nap to recover. Walking downstairs to put the dog out also requires a rest. It's days like this where all I can do is sit. It doesn't matter if I have chores to do, or if I'm going to Disneyland, when I have a 'tired' day, I know I can't fight it. I have to rest.

Today was one of those days. I managed to shower, then I put on my favorite pair of sweats and spent the rest of the day either sitting in my computer chair reading blogs, or laying in bed watching television. Too many days of my life have been spent this way. It's frustrating, but I can't do anything about it.

I'm not complaining. I've learned how to simplify my life to conserve energy, and I know things could always be worse. I just wanted to share another part of me. And, I wanted to explain why sometimes I get quiet. Hopefully, tomorrow will be better. But if it isn't then I will again spend the day resting and I may or may not blog. If I disappear, don't worry about me. I'll be back soon.

Nothing

2010-11-30T00:08:00.002-07:00

I don't have a funny story, or a hilarious joke to tell. I don't have an opinion to vent or an interesting news story to talk about. I don't have a new recipe, a fun craft, or a great new website to share. My kids didn't do anything amazing today, and neither did I.

I haven't run across any old pictures to show you, or taken any new ones either. I don't have any good news, or bad news for that matter. I'm not overly tired, or extremely energetic. I don't have a secret to share, or an announcement to make. I wish I had something to write, but I don't. It was just an ordinary day.

Please Mr Postman

2010-11-29T00:07:00.002-07:00

Thanksgiving is over, and we are officially into the Christmas season. On Black Friday we were lured into stores to purchase gifts for those we love. Today is Cyber Monday where even more shopping will happen, but this time online, and these purchases will arrive through mail or by delivery truck.

I love to shop online. I love choosing what I want to buy, and looking for the best deals. After I type in all my information and click the 'buy' button, I get giddy about thinking when my beloved item will arrive. I check my email for tracking numbers, and I watch it travel across the country until it arrives at my door. Really. There isn't anything more wonderful.

This year, however, all that has changed. Not only will I not have the money to online shop, but even worse, I live with two mail carriers who've ruined the excitement for me. I now understand the mistakes I've made in the past that caused grief for my own mail carrier. It has squashed some of the joy for me.

Because I would hate for the same to happen to you, I thought this might be an appropriate time to share what I've learned about the business of mail delivery.

First and foremost, please understand the time it takes to get that package or letter to your door. My sister works on average, eight hours and delivers to more than seven hundred homes each day. My brother in law, however works between ten and twelve hours each day. The time depends on the route they are assigned. Some are bigger or more rural than others. Each is unique.

They've already worked for several hours, getting their mail organized and everything put in order according to the addresses to which they deliver, before leaving the post office in the morning. Please be patient as they won't always arrive at your house at the same time each day. Also, if you have a mailbox on the street, please make sure it is clear of cars, snow, trashcans or anything that causes them to leave their truck, and walk over to your box to leave your mail. It may seem like it takes them just seconds, but add that to seven hundred homes, and it really can slow them down.

If you receive your mail in one of these style boxes:

Or these:

please,please pick your mail up every day. It may seem convenient because it's safely locked, to not have to check it every day, but the problem is, when the mail comes tomorrow there is no where to put it. It's unfair to expect your carrier to bring it to your door.

Some carriers have treats in their trucks in case they happen to meet an unfriendly dog. Please do not expect your mailman to give your dog a treat each day. Not only is it expensive to keep the truck stocked, but it's unfair to expect it, and it could be dangerous to have the dog run up to the truck.

Sometimes it becomes necessary to fill out change of address, or mail hold forms. Please fill these out carefully and accurately. Your postal carrier cannot read your mind and they only have the information you give them. It will make serving you easier if you double check to see you filled the forms out correctly.

My sister and her husband have both mentioned how much they enjoy getting to know the people on their routes. A friendly hello can do wonders to make what they do worthwhile. But please, don't expect them to stop and visit for too long. They still have a long day ahead of them.

Finally, please remember they are human. They have bad days just like you and I do. Please be patient if you find a problem with your mail. They know how important your mail is, and will do what they can to fix any problems. Let them know when you appreciate them. It will go a long way to receiving the best service they can give you.

Becky's Cheeseball and The Storm of the Century

2010-11-24T00:02:00.003-07:00

This afternoon, the local weathermen said to expect 'the storm of the century' tonight. It was only an hour or two later when the snow started to fall and it looked like they could be right. It was piling up fast.

I know I've mentioned a time or fifty that I love snow storms. I truly do. But I've realized I only love snow storms while they're happening...not so much when the skies clear and the frigid temperatures move in. I don't like it either when the snow gets crusty and dirty. But while it's falling, it's magical and I want to be out in it! I want to go for a drive, or a walk, or shopping!

This explains why, while the flakes were falling, I asked if I could run to the store for anyone. Becky was delighted to take me up on my offer to get a few last minute groceries for our Thanksgiving feast. I got the list and off I went. I turned the radio up and sang my heart out as I drove to the store.

I can honestly say, I haven't felt joy like that for a very long time. By the time I got back home, my feet were wet and cold, my hands were frozen and my ears were red. But I was happy! I've been dreaming of a storm like that for more than a year, and it had finally come!

Hardly, the storm of the century, as it didn't last more than a couple of hours. Though it did leave a few inches on the ground causing Greg to go out to clear the sidewalks. When he came back in, Becky and I had a huge laugh. I convinced him to let me take a picture, though it's blurry because he wouldn't stand still long enough for my stupid slow phone camera to work. Maybe it will give you a chuckle like it did us.

Doesn't he look cute?

I have to explain his hair. More than two years ago, Greg, who is an avid golfer, got an Eagle on one of his outings. He swore that day, he wouldn't cut his hair until he got another one and so far, he hasn't been lucky. I sent Gus a picture of his uncle a few weeks back and he wrote back saying, " I can see he still sucks at golf." We all had a huge laugh at that!

I think Becky and her kids are ready for Greg to get a haircut. But I for one will be disappointed when that day comes. It just won't be the same Greg when he has short hair.

I have had a few emails asking for Becky's favorite cheeseball recipe using the Roka Blue we were having trouble finding. I'm more than happy to share it with you.

Becky's Cheeseball

1 8oz package cream cheese, softened
1 5oz jar Roka Blue cheese spread
1 5oz jar Old English cheese spread

Put cream cheese, Roka Blue and Old English into a bowl. Blend with mixer until smooth and fully mixed. Chill. Serve with assorted crackers.

Becky prefers to put it in a tupperware and spread it onto crackers with a knife. But you can easily form it into a cheeseball and roll in chopped nuts. I've also seen this recipe made with grated sharp cheddar cheese added and I love it that way too.

Pumpkin Pies, Rolls and of course, How I Really Feel About Thanksgiving

2010-11-23T00:03:00.009-07:00

Growing up, I always hated Thanksgiving. It seemed like too much work and not enough fun. We didn't have relatives close by, so every year it was just my mom, brother and sisters at our Thanksgiving table. Mom did all the cooking, and I was always stuck washing the dishes. It just didn't feel special.

When I got married, we lived in the same town as both sets of parents. To keep peace, Daddy-O, the boys and I would alternate years between our family's homes. I longed to fix my own Thanksgiving for my little family. But sadly, it never happened.

I still hope the day will come when I can fix Thanksgiving in my own home. I think I've finally learned what a special holiday it really is. As much as I'm missing my guys, I realize it's about being together and the work it requires, is really a labor of love.

I've always been a slow learner.

Even though I won't have my boys with me this year, I will be with people I love. I am very thankful for this family that took me in and for the love they envelope me in every single day. And unlike my mom, Becky is letting me cook a bit as well as help with the dishes. As far as I'm concerned it's a promotion!

She has asked me to make the pumpkin pies, jello salad and rolls. These are three of the best recipes I have. I can't wait to get started as it's been so long since I've made any of them.

A few months ago, I shared my jello recipe here. If you don't already have your own favorite pumpkin pie and dinner roll recipes, then I urge you to try these. They're easy to make and the results are heavenly!

Best Ever Pumpkin Pie

1¾ cups canned pumpkin

2 eggs, beaten

1¾ cup sweetened condensed milk

2/3 cup brown sugar

2 Tablespoons sugar

1¼ teaspoon cinnamon

¼ teaspoon salt

½ teaspoon nutmeg

¼ teaspoon ground cloves

One 9 inch pie shell

Combine all ingredients and beat at medium speed for two minutes. Pour into prepared pie shell. Bake at 425° for 15 minutes, then turn to 350° and finish baking for 50 minutes. Cool. Serve with whipped cream.

Lion House Dinner Rolls

2 cups warm water

2 Tablespoons dry yeast

1 teaspoon salt

1 egg

2/3 cup non fat dry milk

¼ cup sugar

1/3 cup butter, softened

5 to 5½ cups flour

In mixer, combine water, dry milk powder and stir to combine. Add yeast, sugar, salt, butter, egg and 2 cups flour. Mix two minutes. Gradually add more flour, mixing until you have soft, almost sticky dough. Place in oiled bowl and cover with plastic wrap and allow to raise until doubled in size. Shape rolls, cover and let rise again. Bake at 375° for 15-20 minutes.

I found this same roll recipe at Real Mom Kitchen. (Click here) Laura gives a history to the recipe as well as more detailed instructions. She also includes a recipe for honey butter. Yum!

I don't know about you, but I can't wait to dig in Thursday! I'll be wearing sweatpants so I can indulge in all the goodness. It's the grateful thing to do, after all.

He Cracks Me Up

2010-11-22T00:08:00.001-07:00

I hadn't planned to write on my blog today, but lucky for you, Gus sent a link to this video, and I couldn't resist sharing it. He and a buddy put it together last night. I can't tell you how much it means to me to have this. It's nice to have pictures, but when you're missing someone you love, video is even better.

A couple of notes, the pictures of the guys in their dress blues were taken last night as they were preparing for the Marine Corps Birthday Ball. I love seeing my son in his blues...it makes this mama proud!

Also, when he talks about buying a car from a Lincoln Ford dealership, it's a made up accent... that's not how he normally talks. I think he may be making fun of a television commercial or something. But no matter what he's doing, he cracks me up!

Weekends are always lonely for me. It's when I miss my guys the most. But seeing this video today really helped to chase the blues away. It's the next best thing to giving them a hug!

To Touch The Past

2010-11-19T00:08:00.001-07:00

I've always been envious of those who have housefuls of heirlooms from their grandparents or other relatives. The hand-me-down antiques and small trinkets fill their homes with history and heritage. There is something about the old that adds warmth to a room that something new can't do.

My father's parents were very poor. They were a close knit and very happy family even without having much. My grandmother died at age forty eight, the month before I was born. I ache to know about her. I wish I could have sat in her lap and listened to stories of when she was a young girl. I long for something tangible to connect me with her.

I was very close to my mother's parents. I adored my Grandmother but didn't get to see her often. She lived in Illinois and we were in Utah. We kept in touch through the mail. From her, I learned the dying art of letter writing. I still love when I receive a real stamped letter! It means so much! When she passed away, I was fortunate to be given her wedding rings, as well as a couple pieces of furniture from her home. I cherish those items! When I touch them, it's like I'm touching her.

I wonder sometimes about the grandchildren I hope to have someday. I pray I'll live long enough to watch them grow, and that we will create special memories like the ones of my grandmother I hold so dear. I often wonder what I could leave to remind them of me, and how much I love them.

Something I've longed to do is learn to quilt. Making a quilt for each of my grandchildren to wrap around them and keep them warm would mean so much to me. But I've never had the nerve to try to learn how to piece a quilt before. I talked to Becky about it recently and she jumped right on it.

She found a beginner quilter book, and took me shopping for fabric. When we came home, she made me start cutting the fabric right away. I would've put it away for another day, but she insisted I get started immediately. I love that about her.

The timing isn't great. The holidays are coming up and there is so much to do. I have put away the fabric until after Thanksgiving, but I plan to get it out and continue cutting my pieces during December. I am excited to start on this wonderful project!

Now, I just need my boys to get busy, finding wives and making babies so I'll have someone to give my quilt to!

Seventy Two Questions Later

2010-11-17T12:39:00.000-07:00

While reading a few favorite blogs this morning, I ran across this hilarious post by BooMama. She always entertains me with her sweet and funny sense of humor. I love starting the day with her.

She included links for a personality test and explanations for the different types of personalities. I eat that stuff up. When I was in my twenties, a favorite friend and I would take quizzes in the Cosmopolitan magazine each month. I took very seriously the results to such topics as What Kind of Girlfriend Are You? Or, Will You Be Alone For Valentine's Day This Year?

The truth is, I hardly ever had a boyfriend and I was always alone for Valentines Day. I still loathe that holiday. All those red and pink meaningless commercial gifts make me feel unloved and ugly every single February. But lets get back to the quiz, shall we?

Of course, I immediately went to see what type personality I have. I clicked on the first link and found 72 yes or no questions to answer. I read each one carefully and answered as honestly as I could. Though, a couple of times I had a hard time deciding which way to answer because both answers could apply..

When it was time for the results I found I am a INFJ (Introverted Intuitive Feeling Judging). I didn't really understand what it meant, so I clicked on the second link BooMama provided. There, I found a much more detailed explanation of personality type.

When I read through it, I was struck by how well it explains me. I even understand myself a bit better now and you know what? I'm okay! I'm not weird and unlikeable like I thought I was. I'm just me!

Here are a few highlights:

...INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types...

...INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations. They get "feelings" about things and intuitively understand them...Consequently, most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive...

...INFJ is a natural nurturer; patient, devoted and protective. They make loving parents and usually have strong bonds with their offspring. They have high expectations of their children, and push them to be the best that they can be. This can sometimes manifest itself in the INFJ being hard-nosed and stubborn. But generally, children of an INFJ get devoted and sincere parental guidance, combined with deep caring...

I can't help but wonder what personality type each of my sons are. Or even what Daddy-O is. Maybe it would've helped us communicate better. Sometimes, it's hard to understand what makes the ones you love tick and why they're making things so complicated. But really, it's just that they see the world differently than we do.

I Love It...So You Might Too

2010-11-16T00:11:00.003-07:00

I've mentioned before my favorite day of the week is Monday. It's Becky's day off and I enjoy spending it with her. We often drive into Salt Lake City for errands or just to shop and have lunch.

Lately, however, we seem to have started a new Monday tradition. We stop at our favorite new find, My Sugar's Donut Shop.


Notice the donut in the middle row, right side. That is the maple donut of which I am so fond.

They have the most amazing donut's I've ever eaten. I've tried most of their flavors, but my all time favorite is the maple. It is unlike any maple frosting I've ever tasted. Its not the brittle topping you'll find at most places (though they make that kind as well) but rather it's a creamy, not too sweet, homemade frosting that perfectly compliments the tender donut its paired with.

Since finding My Sugar's, I spit on Krispy Kreme! Okay, not really, but i would choose My Sugar's over a Krispy Kreme any day! Sorry Krispy Kreme...you're still my second favorite donut though!

Not only are the donuts out of this world, but the customer service is amazing. We are always greeted by the same smiling girl and she makes our visit so pleasant. If you're ever in the area, I highly recommend you stop by. Oh, and be sure to pick up an extra maple donut for me. Thanks!

My Sugar's Donut Shop

2126 South 3200 West

West Valley City, UT 84119

Where Is It?

2010-11-15T14:09:00.000-07:00

Last fall, Kraft decided it would no longer produce a favorite holiday product, Roka Blue Cheese Spread. It came in a small glass jar and was always found on the grocery store shelves next to this:

Becky, was disappointed last Thanksgiving when she could no longer purchase Roka Blue. She has a favorite cheese ball recipe that uses it. Kraft suggested we use regular cream cheese mixed with blue cheese, to replace the Roka. That mixture was much too strong! We tried several different variations, but none of them were satisfactory. Becky was heartbroken.

Hopeful she wasn't the only consumer disappointed with the decision to discontinue Roka Blue, she decided to write to Kraft. She waited anxiously to hear back from them, but was disappointed again when an email arrived saying they were sorry, but they weren't changing their minds.

Fast forward to two weeks ago: I heard Becky screaming downstairs. I ran down to see if she was alright. She was opening her mail and found a letter from Kraft. They explained, due to many complaints, they've decided to remake the product. It will be available from early November through the end of the year, the letter explained. Becky was overjoyed and immediately sent Trey to the grocery store to buy ten bottles. We were so happy!

But Trey came home empty handed. The grocery store did not have Roka Blue on their shelves. Since that day, we've been back again and again looking for the cheese spread. We have yet to find it.

I am asking for your help in locating this product. I don't want to see my usually happy sister be disappointed another Holiday season so I'd really love to find it. Please, when you're doing your grocery shopping, will you just look to see if your store carries Roka Blue? Then leave me a message telling me where you found it?

Helping her find a few jars of her favorite cheese spread would mean so much to her... and to me. After all she does for me, finding Roka Blue is the least I can do for her.

Fill in the Blank Friday

2010-11-12T00:32:00.002-07:00

The most spontaneous thing I've ever done is drive to Vegas for dinner. It was while I was in college, and a friend suggested we 'kidnap' two guys and drive them to Vegas to eat. It was about a three hour drive, and it was awful. I didn't know either of the guys she brought. They weren't happy to be there and acted like jerks, though I hardly blame them. My friend wouldn't give up. She insisted we were having a wonderful time. We were there all night and made it back just in time for classes the next morning. It was awful.

The best gift I ever received was a Michael Jackson microphone. It was black with a graphic of Michael on it. It worked by tuning it into a radio station, then broadcast my voice over the radio. I sang my little heart out with that thing! It made my family crazy but I truly loved it. Mind you, it's probably not the greatest gift ever, but it was the day I got it. Besides, it's late and I can't think.

A time I was truly and genuinely surprised was when I was told I had a brain tumor. I'd been having some female issues so I made an appointment with my gynecologist. While I was there I asked if he would schedule and MRI for me. My family has a rich history of brain tumors, and even though I hadn't had any symptoms, I was past due for a scan. I was more than surprised when the doctor broke the news to me. I had a tumor that was unlike any my family members had experienced. It was also the cause for my female problems. I think my doctor was more surprised than I was...poor guy.

I can't leave the house without going to the bathroom. It doesn't matter if I just went five seconds earlier, I have to go again. I also have to be the last one to go. If someone sneaks in and goes after I do, well then. I just have to repeat the process. Is that too much information??

My favorite day of the week is Monday because it's Becky's day off and I get to spend the whole day alone with my sister. We always find something fun to do, then finish the day off with a late lunch before her son comes home from school.

Something that can always make me laugh is listening to PJ, my oldest son, watch cartoons. He's a twenty one year old Marine, but he loves Cartoon Network. He doesn't just laugh, he belly laughs and it gives me the giggles every single time!

My perfect day would include going out for breakfast, then doing some clothes shopping (all for me!), followed by a long, lazy nap and finally ordering in pizza and eating in front of the television.

Why don't you play along? Just answer the questions on your own blog, then link up at the little things we do.

Happy Birthday Marine Corps

2010-11-10T20:51:00.001-07:00

Today is the Marine Corps 235th birthday. When I realized it this morning, I spent a few moments remembering when my first Marine son, PJ, was fresh out of boot camp and attended his first ball. Because he was the youngest Marine attending he had the honor of accepting the second piece of cake. The first goes to the oldest Marine. I was thrilled for him when he shared that experience with his dad and I.

This afternoon, PJ called today to tell me he'd just learned Gus has been named Marine of the Quarter. PJ tried to explain the details to me, but I didn't understand the Marine jargon he used. What I think he said is, Hayden was nominated along with four other Marine's for the honor. They each had to go before a board made up of higher ranking Marine's who asked them a series of questions. They were judged on their answers, appearance, uniform and attitude, and somehow, my son came out with the honor.

I am, of course, bursting with pride. After hanging up with PJ, I immediately sent a text to Gus and asked why he didn't tell me. His answer was, "I didn't think it was important". That boy! He keeps everything to himself, good or bad! I learn what's happening in his life, not from him personally, but from Facebook.

This afternoon, on his wall he wrote:

"today i was told to think about the reason why i joined the marine corps... i joined to to feel like i was doing my part....to save a life....to be apart of something bigger.....most importantly i joined for me and that's something nobody can take away from me no matter how I'm treated here ill make it through and no one can tell me i didn't make it....so happy bday marines corps"

Happy Birthday Marine Corps. Thanks for everything.

It's Weird

2010-11-09T00:18:00.001-07:00

Today was a bad day. One of my boys hurt my feelings. I imagine I hurt his as well. I didn't mean to and I'm certain he didn't mean it either. We're just so far from each other. In just a few short minutes a couple times a week we want to express everything inside us. Sometimes, it doesn't work. It comes out wrong.

I tried to make it right, but he was mad. As I think about it, he had a right to be. We're all still broken, my family and me. We haven't healed yet. We're confused why we love each other so much yet we aren't together. It's weird.

The holidays make it worse. We aren't sure where to spend Christmas together. We each have our own idea. We want to be together but there isn't a perfect solution. We're tired. We're just so tired.

I hope tomorrow we can talk again. This time maybe we can find a solution. Or at least say I'm sorry. And I'll say I love you. No matter what.

Thank You Rain Gods

2010-11-08T10:04:00.000-07:00

After a tough weekend and lots of feeling sorry for myself, the Rain God's took pity and gave me SNOW! It's amazing how peeking out the window and seeing this:

changed my gloomy mood into a happy mood instantly!

I admit it's a very wet snow that's not really sticking, but it's still snow just the same.

Man! I love the snow!

Fill in the Blank Friday

2010-11-05T01:30:00.000-06:00

Well, we made it through another week, so let's celebrate by filling in blanks, shall we? It's not only fun, but it's challenging too. So put on those thinking caps and hop over to Lauren's blog to link up!

My last haircut was one week ago. It's the best cut I've had in my life and I hope it never grows out!!

My most daring hair moment was two weeks before my wedding. I let the stylist talk me into cropping my hair over my ears. Even though it was popular at that time, I knew I looked awful.

A hairstyle I'd never be brave enough to try is a super short cut like Halle Berry's. She has a beautiful face with the bone structure to pull it off. I would look plain ole' ugly...even worse than my wedding day!

I always dreamed of being a dark brunette with super straight, thick hair. I would love to shake my head and have my beautiful hair toss like a shampoo model's hair.

My go-to hair do is no fuss. I have no clue what to do with my hair, so I usually just blow it dry and hope for the best.

My biggest hair disaster was when I participated in a hair fashion show. I had agreed to let the stylist do whatever she wanted. Big mistake! She dyed it red and cut it too short. I cried on the runway. The worst part was looking into the audience and seeing my loud mouth neighbor. I knew she was enjoying my pain way too much!

A hairstyle I am dying to try is anything up. I've never once in my life worn my hair in a ponytail, or in an up-do. I am guessing I would hate it, as I wouldn't be used to seeing my ears, but I would still love to try.

My best hair day was probably a day when I was home by myself with no where to go.

The worst hairstyle I ever had was this one:

I had a perm, yet brushed it out every day. What was I thinking?

My hair is thick yet fine. I imagine if I knew what to do with it, I would love it! It can hold a curl or stay straight. It's healthy and shiny. So why do I look so awful most of the time??

We Packed Boxes, We Moved Boxes and We Drank Starbucks

2010-11-04T00:24:00.000-06:00

The physical part of moving mom was much easier than I had anticipated. All my sisters and my brother came, some with their kids. We had plenty of strong bodies to lift and carry all the boxes and furniture.

Mom wanted to take most everything she owns with her. At first I was concerned about that, as she will not be living on her own again, so why did she need her dishes? But the reality is, it brings her comfort. I know first hand what it's like to leave my home behind and truthfully, I wish I had brought more with me.

My little sister, Valerie arrived a few days before the rest of us. By the time we got there everything was packed, organized and ready to move. When Gary arrived, we just had to load it up. It was so easy! Or maybe it just seemed easy because Valerie and Gary did all the work.

We took a time out, for the girls to make a trip to Starbucks for some female bonding. I think the guys might have felt a bit left out, and I'm so sorry about that. But sometimes, girls just wanna have fun!

I think my mom is relieved to be moving. She was exhausted by the end, but she seemed happy too. After all these years, and the hardships she's endured, she will finally be able to enjoy her days without worry.

My brother, sisters, nieces and nephews too!

Mom and all her children (Sam, Gary, Mom, Valerie, Becky, Me)

The customary goof picture

Zachary. I loved his sweatshirt. It was so him!

Becky and her daughter, Courtney

Sam, her daughter Paisley and Paisley's friend

The sisters (Becky, Sam, Me and Valerie)

Me. I was thrilled to learn Starbucks can make any of their drinks without coffee. I went for the pumpkin spice frappuccino with extra whipped cream and chocolate chips. It was amazing!

I was determined to get every last bit!